Failed Attempts

An Announcement

Well, hi. You all deserve an explanation! No better place than to start from the beginning.

This story was started more as a gift to myself, but I thought that if this could make me feel better, it could make others feel better too! And I know it comes off as 'cringy' and I really appreciate all of you who commented that this story has potential, I am thankful to all of you! Originally, when I first posted this story, I suppose maybe I forced myself to come off as 'edgy'? Maybe it was a phase? How I felt when I wrote that was very much real, but I sounded like a kid in that. Which I was! But, I digress. 

After I posted that 'Prolouge' I felt accomplished! I had actually done something, for starters, but I also found it in my gut to post it to the internet! Woah! And I suppose that that feeling lead me to become complacent, in a sense. I posted it, and that's it. And gain much traction at first which actually made me pretty upset. After that, I had just left it alone. Sitting on this old account for three pretty long years. It's gained traction recently, to my surprise! I only checked this account rarely because I had really forgotten the password to it and 'blah blah blah'. 

I can just say, I grew up while I was gone. I grew away from, this story, I guess, if that's any way to summarize it. I've moved from the name 'OtakuGamer' cause that name's just been used to death by a lot of people, and it's not me anymore (even though it'll still have a place in my heart).  What I said in the ending anecdote just sounds so forced and I sound like I'm romanticizing the self harm bit and I apologize. That arrogant asshole isn't me anymore. Maybe that's why I left this account, honestly. It just made me feel like I was forcing myself to feel that sadness and I didn't wanna deal with it.

But, I've grown. And so have to Youtubers who were to be featured in this work! They've moved with their lives. But, if you all would like, I was thinking of redoing and actually continuing  this story. If that's what you would all want of course. I believe that I've become way better from when I used to write like this. 

Seeing all the comment and how little I actually wrote, and honestly how long it's been since I've written this story. It's been 'three fucking years'! (As one of you guys said, which was totally awesome, thank you)

I promise that I won't run away for three years this time! ;)                                                                                I've come a long way, and I'll be sure not to let any of you down again! My new account is khaloxk if any of you would like to read the new and revised version of this, and tell me if you even want it!

I love you all, and I'll see you all on the flip side!                                                                                                    -ducky, formerly known as 'OtakuGamer'