Little Things

Isaac or Tod?

A couple of days just passed by and I still keep thinking about Isaac and his stupid friend. Will I ever forgive him? I looked up my celiing and counted the glow in the dark stars I sticked on my wall since I was 5. A few fell off, but the stars were pretty strong. I thought about the book I finished reading. The fault in our stars. It must suck to have cancer. It really does. Not that I know how she felt, but still. These couple of days I spent so much time alone I really needed to get some fresh air with my best friend. No guys, just me and Amanda.

"Hey Amanda. Do you want to hang out?" I asked talking into my phone.

"Yeah sure hold on a sec," she said.

I waited for a while hearing her mom and dad screaming at each other. This was so not the best time to call. A rush of guilt hit me.

"Umm.. should I call you back or something?" I asked.

"No, no its fine."

I heard a door shut.

"Okay so where do you want to hang out?" Amanda asked.

"The beach? We can order pizza first and then walk along the beach near sunset. I really need that. Tomorrow we can do what you want." I ssuggested.

"Sure Helga anything for you. It must suck. That Isaac betrayed you like that," she said.

"Alright I'm coming out of my house now. See ya." I hung up, wore my shoes and head outside.

Shit. My phone. I'm so forgetful. I rushed back inside and grabbed my phone and earphones. I plugged them in my ears and opened "Let Her Go" by Passenger. This song is amazing. I sang along. Only know you've been high when you're feeling low. Only hate the road when you're missing home. Only know you love her when you let her go.

"And you let her go."

I startled and searched for the voice. Tod. My heart kept beating fast. No one heard me sing before except for Mike. But he's an acception. Did I sound bad?

"Haha. Nice song isn't it?" Tod asked.

Me and Tod are neighbors. We bump into each other quite alot.

"Yeah. You scared me Tod! Please next time don't just scare me like that. God," I said letting out a little laugh.

He nudged me and looked down.

"So how's Isaac?" He asked.

I looked at him and noticed his green eyes and spiky hair. His eyes held something deep that I couldn't quite lay my finger on.

"I don't know. Ask him. Or Dike. Dike must know for sure," I said sounding pissed off.

"Stupid plan wasn't it? I warned them not to do the trick on you but Dike wouldn't listen," Tod said.

"You knew about it? Why didn't you tell me earlier?!"

"I wanted too okay? It's just... God Helga. Sometimes I need to help my own problems too. I keep helping you out with Isaac and I'm just tired of it. Did you know my dad hit my mom two days ago?"

"Oh my god tod I'm so sorry. Why didn't you call me?!" I asked.

"I don't know. I thought you needed space by yourself because of the prank Dike and Isaac pulled on you," he said quitely. "I didn't want to cause more problems."

See what I mean? Tod was the best guy friend ever. I gave him a little hug and rubbed his back.

"It's going to be okay, I promise." I said soothingly.

"I hope so. But sometimes things get worse," he said.

I wanted to ask how hard his dad hit her but knew better. Stacey, Tod, and sometimes Amanda have so many family problems. Sometimes I look at my family and feel thankful that it's at least stable.

Tod and I kept walking as I turned to my left. I was still listening to my music and for the first time I looked deeply in Tod's eyes and felt this emotion in me. Was it sadness? I did feel sorry for him. My problems are so small compared to his. I wonder what it's like to step in his shoes. Suddenly Tod broke the moment of silence.

"So what song is playing?" He asked.

"Oh." I looked at my iPhone and clicked the home button. "Demons."

"Never heard it. Who's it by?"

"It's by Imagine Dragons. They're really good."

"Oh okay. Can I listen to it?" He asked.

"Sure," I smiled.

I took out my left earphones and handed it to him. He put it on. Soon we were both so close with our shoulders touching.Your eyes, they shine so bright. I want to save that light. I can't escape this now, unless you show me how. When you feel my heat. Look into my eyes, it's where my demons hide it's where my demons hide.

"This is my favorite part," I said.

"Wow. This song's pretty good," he remarked.

"Yeah," I said.

We listened to the song until the road seperated.

"Got to go to Amanda's," I said.

"Alright. Is Isaac going to be there?" he asked.

"Hell no. Are you kidding me?"

"Okay," he said. He smiled for real and I smiled back.

"Bye Tod," I said.

"Bye Helga."

We walked to our seperate paths as I continued listening to the songs. As I walked I noticed that right now, I like Tod better than Isaac. And this is the feeling I've never felt before. He asked me if Isaac was going to be there. Did he leaave on Friday because of him? Then I realised the little things. After all this while I just realised Tod had always been there for me even when Isaac wasn't. And right now I fell in love with the little things, his spiky hair and his adorable smile. But mostly, Tod's amazing personality.