In Between The Red and Green

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[Present Time]

   Mark flicked the off switch on his camera and let out a heavy sigh. While his throat was sore and his face was stained with tears, he felt relieved and slightly happier than he had felt for months. A heavy weight had finally been lifted from his chest.

   Without even editing the video, he immediately uploaded it to Youtube, titling it as a message to Sean. He didn't even bother writing a description, as he wanted it to be uploaded as soon as possible. He hoped that Sean would see it immediately.

   By the end of the day, Mark's video had been buzzing around the internet. Thousands of fans were spamming it to Sean, urging him to watch it. Since he had been busy recording all day, he wasn't able to get around to seeing his fans' messages until late in the night. The title of the video confused him, considering the fact that he hadn't spoken to Mark in months. However, he knew he had to watch the video.

   He set up his camera, with plans of recording a reaction, just in case it seemed necessary. Once he was prepared, Sean clicked play on Mark's video.

   "Hey Jack, or should I say, Sean. I know we haven't talked in a long time... and I know you're probably really upset with me...." Mark looked away from the camera for a second. "But there's just some things I can wanting to tell you. I sincerely want to apologize for what happened on that night several months ago. I didn't want to hurt you..." a few tears began to trickle out of his eyes. He took a moment to wipe them away before taking a deep breath and continuing. His voice was shaky as he spoke, yet he still pushed on so he could get the message out.

   "I know what really happened and I know that you're hurting... I-I really want to be there for you but I can't," he began to shake with sobs. "And... I..I just want you to know that I actually do remember what happened when you... came to visit. I remember every detail, but I never wanted to admit it... because I tried so hard to forget that night," tears continued to fall from his face. Sean watched on, his eyes tearing up as well.

   "Mark..." he whispered to himself, completely forgetting that he was on camera.

   "I didn't want to end up hurting myself for hurting you, but it but it looks like that already happened..." Mark continued after wiping his face clean. "I really hope you can forgive me... for everything. I seriously do. You mean so much to me... even though I don't really admit that very often. Though you might not see it I-I actually do care..." he was starting to become unable to hold back his sobs. "A-and I just want you to be happy and not have to force a smile anymore. And I know that what you did was because of me.. a-and I can't change that, but.. I hope I can fix it so we can still be friends... and I can accept you for who you are. I-I hope you can accept me for who I am as well... Please... don't hurt yourself anymore, and don't hate yourself either. I'm willing to take all the blame, if that's what you need to feel better. And J-Jack... Honestly... I think I m-might feel the same as well.. I'm just fighting to deny it... Either way, I.. I hope you can forgive me."

   Sean was filled with many different emotions, all of which were pouring out of him at the moment. He instantly turned off the camera before erupting into sobs. He was about to close out of Youtube, but Mark had a few more words.

   "Please... I'm.. so sorry, Sean," on screen, Mark was sobbing and wiping tears from his face. "I want to make you happy."

   The video abruptly ended there, and Sean was met with a black screen, which was shortly replaced by a selection of recommended videos. He closed out of the website and stared at his plain background on the computer. His reflection stared back at him, his face glistening with tears and his hair disheveled.