Twenty;
~ Sky's POV ~
I know It's looked like I'm very comfortable around Zayn and other guys but I'm not. I just don't want anyone to know what I'm feeling inside. I don't let people in usually. Every time Zayn hugs, kisses or comes near me in terrified he'll do something. Or any guy for that matter. If they come within 5 feet of me I freak out inside. You won't see it but I am.
I was planning on telling Raygan but I don't know how. She coming over to my house tonight. My parents don't know about Zayn and I and it'll stay that way until further notice. I just got home from school so I walked into the kitchen to get a drink. I met Jeremy and my other brother in there.
"Hey guys."
"Hey." They mumbled back.
"Can y'all do me a favor?" I asked.
"Sure. What?" Jeremy said.
"Can you not tell mom and dad about Zayn?" I asked.
"Don't they already know?" My older brother, Steven asked.
"I think that they think he was just a friend. I think." I told them.
"Okay sure." Jeremy said. Steven nodded.
"Okay thank you guys." I smiled and hugged both their necks.
"If he hurts you or try's anything. Let us know." Steven stated.
"Okay." I nodded and walked up to my room.
From: <3 Raygan <3
I'll be there in 3 minutes!!
To: <3 Raygan <3
See ya then !
I waited for a few minutes then Raygan entered my room.
"Hey!"
"Hey." I said with a smile.
"So what's up?"
"Nothing I just have to tell someone something." I stated.
"What are you talking about?" She asked.
"I have to tell someone. That I'm terrified inside. I'm terrified of every guy. Any of them that come in within 5 feet of me. Even Zayn. I'm terrified he'll hurt me or take me away. When he grabs my hand or touches me I freak out inside. I don't show it because I don't want to hurt him. The first time he ever hugged me I wanted to push him away and run. I don't trust anyone. No guy at all." I began bawling into her shirt. She held onto me. Hugging me and telling me everything was going to be alright.
"Hey look at me." She said softly. I rose my head up to look at her. "Babe. Zayn loves you and would do anything to save you. When we couldn't find you he wouldn't eat or sleep. All he would do is sit there all night until we could go look for you agin."
"But still. You don't even know what happened to me there. I barely told you what happened. I'm so useless! Why would someone love me? I'm so used and useless. No one wants a used toy." I finished.
"I do." I turned to see zayn standing in my doorway.
"H-how much did you hear?" I asked.
"Just the last part." He told me. He started to come towards me but I flinched. I couldn't help it anymore. He looked hurt. I felt so bad but I was terrified. I'm never going to be the same. I thought to myself.
~ Zayns POV ~
She's never going to trust me again. And it's all Maxes fault. He broke her. I thought as I walked out to my car. I got in the car and took off to the house. The other boys were gree when I got there. I came in and the boys saw me.
"Hey Zayn. What's wrong man?" Louis asked.
"S-she's scared of me." I said quietly. I looked at Louis. His face was filled with compassion and sympathy.
"Zayn. I'm sorry man. You just have to start from the beginning. Just start by being there for her. Don't try to hold her he me or kiss her. That will only push her farther away. Just be there for her." Liam told me. I nodded and thanked him. I went up to my room and went to bed.
~ the next day ~
~ Raygans POV ~
We came to school and everyone stayed away from us. They didn't know that coach Styles and coach Malik were included but they new Sky and me were. They all look at us weird. Epically Skylar. I feel so bad for her. She's under so much pressure. It's Friday so she was coming to my house tonight to hang out.
I met her in the cafeteria and we walked into the gym. We saw coach styles and coach Malik. Sky smiled and waved as did I. We walked into the locker room and got dressed.
We both wore our knee length blue shorts and our Orlando t-shirts. We walked out talking about random stuff.
Sky and I played with the volleyball until everyone got out of the locker rooms.
"Alright today's an easy day. First we'll run 3 laps, then we'll do some abb work outs, and then we'll have free time. Okay start on your laps." Coach Malik finished.
Sky and I ran together not talking much. After we finished we went to our spots and began the workout they had given us. 30 crunches, 20 push ups, 50 side touches, and plank for as long as we can hold it. We did ours then went to get the volleyball. Sky got it and went back into the gym while I went into the locker room to use the bathroom. When I came out I saw Coach Styles. I walked over to him and asked him if he wanted to hang out a my place tonight.
"Sure but I don't think your mom would like it if she knew who I was." He stated.
"True so I'll let you come in through my window." I said with a smile. "Oh and bring Zayn." He nodded and I went into the gym.
~ Sky's POV ~
When I entered the gym I started biting it against the wall as hard as I could. Zayn came over and said. "Do you need a partner?"
"Yeah sure." I said with a smile.
I tossed I to him and he bumped it back to me. I set it; he set it back so I spiked it. He dove for the ball and got it. I laughed and helped him up. "Good job." I said with a little laugh. I suddenly felt sick. I rushed to the bathroom passing Raygan and coach styles. I ran for the toilet. Just as I reached the toilet I threw up. What? I never get sick. I thought. Then I remembered my period was in a few days so that makes sense. I got up and walked out of the stall. Raygan just entered the locker room to see me washing out my mouth.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Thanks." I said with a smile. I can't wait to go to her house tonight.
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for my loviesss
