Too Good To Be Real : Meanie

Not Meanie Things : Jeon Wonwoo

So yesterday, we've heard a very heartbreaking news about one of our talented boy: Kim Jonghyun. It was seriously  got me shocking so much. I may not know him well, but i do know he was a singer with angelic voice. I really love his duet song with taeyeon on sm the ballad, and keep repeating that song up until now.

To be honest, i'm not a shawol and not a fan of him, but seeing him in every article, seeing how much world feeling lost because of him, how much everyone mourned over him, i also felt hurt. Idk, somehow my feelings got mixed and it's not in a good way.  My day is somehow gloomy and I keep repeating his songㅡbreath, sm the balladㅡand feeling sad over this. It's actually daebak btw, you don't have to become shawol or jonghyun fans for also feeling mourned. I can tell how his fans feels even i'm not his fans.

Well, that bad news from yesterday somehow kinda remembering me of wonwoo. I know it's really out of the blue but i do thought about him once i heard that  heartbreaking news.

You know, the first time i stan jeon wonwoo, i can't deny that it was because of his looks. I saw him and got a love from first sight. I love his messy hair and his spectacles. I also wore spectacles back then, and his bad eyesight kinda remembering me of myself.

The first month i stan him, i found it really hard because he was in his dark-emo-mode. He just coming back from his illness and scandal and become so damn quiet. He didn't even bother to put his smile and performed with blank looks as if his soul went from his body. I didn't gave much attention back then and just going with-oh-okay-thats-it-no-problem state.

But then, i saw his old fancam, his concert, his reality show, his interview and watching ofd back, i realized how he changed 180° from his genuine personality. He's so pure, angelic, and really active during his mansae day, and i can't believe i was watching the same person. It was as if he has a double personality. As if he changed into a whole different person.

I once even questioned what was his real personality. Which one is the right one? Is he become quiet because his company telling him so? To decreasing the bad comments from his scandal? Is he become quiet because of him feeling bad for the member? Or is he become quiet because he still very sick and didn't have a strenght to smile? Like, he is an idol, is that even possible to make such a face while performing? Well, but Jeon Wonwoo did it, and it was very heartbreaking.

And then, after questioning and thinking much, i got my own conclusion: He was so quiet because his sickness. He got sick because of his scandal.

Who knows if he depressed right?

Hell, he even got really skinny back then. I remember watching him perform aju nice and his cheekbone was really visible.

It was a time when finally i know that i love Jeon Wonwoo so much. I don't know the exact time, but i also feel hurt whenever i'm watching his platonic face in almost everytime. But instead of leaving him, i immediately want to protect him. I just want him to overcome his sickness and being how Jeon Wonwoo is used to be. I really missed his old times, even i just barely know him. It was a time when i know i have to stan Jeon Wonwoo. When i know i just loved him, without wanting anything back. Well, i love him until that extent.

So, when finally seventeen had a comeback with their third mini album, idk but i feel so blessed. I can say that boom boom is my most favorite era. Because finally i can saw his smile again.

I even remember the boom boom showcase they did on v live, that time when seventeen performing aju nice, it was my first time seeing Jeon Wonwoo smiled while dancing aju nice. And i really cherished that a lot. I even replaying it numerous time just to make sure jeon wonwoo really smiled back then.

And now, in 2017, i see wonwoo is got active again and talk a lot. He also smiled and slowly back into his old times. Even he didn't smile as pure as he did back then, i still feel relieved. He finally overcome his trauma and being jeon wonwoo whom everyone missed.

So whats i'm gonna say is:

I love jeon wonwoo. I love him, and decide to fully support him with everything i could do. I will respect him for every decision he made, whether he was dating, quitting seventeen, married, or anything, everything.  I will still loved him even he isn't seventeen anymore.

Because the happy jeon wonwoo is just everything i want.

So, let's keep loving seventeen as an idol, not wanting more. Respect their decision if one day, they got married or leave seventeen. Don't questioned everything and just goes by. I know it will be hurtful but it will be happened later. We just have to let them be happy, because they also deserved happiness just like us.

Jeon Wonwoo had done everything to me. He once told me sugohaesso and i really feel grateful even he just saying it on mv. So i want to talked him sugohaesso while i can.

So he could know how much this potato carat loves him.
So he could know that his exsistence is really precious.
So he could know that everyone is loved him.

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Hey, Jeon Wonwoo.
You didn't know
i love you this much do you?

Well,
It's okay.
I don't expect anything anyway.

I just love you without a reason.
사랑해.... :")

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Ah, thats it.
I hope i never hear any kind of similar news again.
Deep condolences for Kim Jonghyun..
Rest in peace angel... :")

And finally, I hope in 2018, Jeon Wonwoo eat well and be healthy always.
I love him.
So much.