DreamDiaries

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It holds me down like buckles chaining me to my bed. No, it it doesn't just hold me.... It shoves me pushing me down into my bed until I can breathe no more. It takes it's hands and wraps them around my neck while ripping apart my chest until I have absolutely nothing left. It pulls my tears down my face commanding my body to curl up and to maybe just hold that knife. It tells me the only way I can escape would be to go through that door and onto the other side but I don't know what lurks behind that door. I don't know the horrors that might await me for even having thee nerve to hold onto that handle. My life is a whirlwind of what if' hows and buts and it just makes all f those things clearer. It brings along it's friends to laugh and scorn and it's friends want to join in on all the fun. They follow me around when it's not there leaving me shaking with my heart pounding and tears constantly tingling my eyes. Leave me alone and take your abhorrent lackeys with you because I will take that knife that you so helpfully put in my hand and push it through to your brain. I will rip apart the chain that connects me to you while grabbing onto that noose you told me would ease my pain and I will wrap it around your neck and the necks of your minions and I will finally break free. I will not go through that door that has no lock and will lead me to that ambiguous darkness. No. I will take the road filled with thorns and beasts and I will cross it successfully until I reach that meadow that right now to me is only a spark of light in the distance. I will succeed and nothing and no-one can stop me..