Mere Fan | 은진

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That night, Marinette sat on her swivel chair and face her study table. She turned the lamp on to lighten up the shadow on the notebook she will write on.

The notebook was old, but doesn't contain scribbles in each pages. It was her old notebook that her mother gave to her for her to learn how to write when she was only four. But being a thoughtful daughter, she told her mother that she will use the notebook for something more. . . important. She was thoughtful enough to make the notebook as her messenger to her idol, Park Eunjin, that she had recently thought of it after keeping the notebook for years.

Paging up the flowery cover of the notebook, she glanced at the drawer beneath the notebook, she pulled it and grab some materials out and decorate the notebook. After a good thirty-minutes of wrapping, she's finally done and pick her pen from her mini-brush vase.

Dear Park Eunjin,
Hi, I'm Marinette Santos. I really don't know what will I write here but please. . . listen.
You had released another recipe and I haven't learn your yesterday's recipe yet. I've got another blister because the oil burst while I'm trying to cook your recipe but I failed. I'm not good at cooking.
But honestly, why does a fangirl always makes her way just to covet something... like a trophy?
Yeah, Maybe I'm one of them, but I don't want to be called a fangirl. I just admire and like you and wanted to see you. I feel dumb whenever I had problems and I talk to your poster on my wall, the paper didn't respond to me. I'm just glad that I'm seeing your face in my wall but it saddens me that the person in the poster doesn't talk at all. Even if I wear something nice or copy other KPOP artists fashion doesn't make me look like them. You will never notice them anyway because I assume that you'll think of them as a KPOP fan and no more.
I hate the fact about how rumours spread like the speed of light around, especially dating rumours. Those rumours manage to change the people's way of thinking out how KPOP artist are doing. Rumours are quite deceiving, but it hurts when a rumour you assume that was fake was actually true. I just don't wanna be like any other girls out there who will stalk their biased idol 24/7 outside their entertainment buildings. I don't want to be a paparazzi who will always snap a photo out of blue just to make their own photos of idols.
Why does other idols always look down on a fan like nothing? anyways, those idols doesn't know all of his/her fans that's why they keep ignoring them.
Whatever it takes, I will meet you one day. I admire you but don't fangirl you. I may scream when you show up everytime but it doesn't mean I'm crazy fangirling for you. I'm just proud that my admired idol is performing.
It sad to say that you'll never read this.

-Marinette

She sighed after writing and decided to close the notebook and stuff it into the drawer and put the pen on it's place. She took a slow glance at the mirror and neared the full-sized mirror on the side.

She released a tired breath, "Tsk... You hopeless brat, you know that you will never meet him in reality, he will just think that you're some kind of fangirl who is crazy for him. You know also that he will never read that stupid notebook and you already waste your time on writing such hopeless letters. He doesn't know you, he will never know you." her subconscience bitterly said to her through the eyes of her reflection. It was true. Maybe the chance is too complicated for him to know her in person and atleast be friends with her.

She shake her head, "No, Marinette. You have to give it a try. Just... a little try." But if she fails to meet him, she'll stop even if she like him too badly.

Turning out the flourescent light, she covered her body with her blanket that serves as shield while she sleeps.

"Tommorow is another day~" she whispered before she drifted off to dreamland.

Second part so far, how's this part?

Honestly, the plot I put in this part is similar to what I am thinking. I always ask myself like that and I often think of negative thoughts like Marinette in this part but eventually tell myself that It will soon happen even if the chance is too narrow.

-SuJi