Imperfect | Tofuugaming Fanfic

Chapter 6

(A/N) Play the music if you want to :) Each song that is on the side does relate to each chapter, so personally for me it adds to it :D

Hope's P.O.V

        It's been three days ever since Joe almost kissed me but walked off instead and he still hasn't got in any contact with me. I still don't understand why he just left me before the kiss. Maybe, it's because he has a girlfriend? Well, I don't know if they're dating but they are going to the winter formal together... Hopefully, that's it or else I feel as if I'm an idiot. I don't have any friends it seems like now, at least I have the beautiful thing called the internet.  It seems to keep me preoquiped from thinking of Joe and trying to figure out other reasons why he didn't kiss me. Yet the one thing that sucks about being an overthinker, you always find your mind wandering back to the problem. I looked down for the millionth time and refreshed Joe's twitter just to see some kind of interaction from him. Another second later, I'm able to see his tweets. He tweeted. Well, that certainly crosses off the option that he died or something. That means he purposely not texting me... Why must I mess up everything?

        The things that go around in the brain of mine are insane. Sometimes I wish I could be young again. Innocent not knowing the pain the world has to deliver to us someday. One thing I know for certain is that when I was a kid wanting to grow up and be a big kid was shown as an amazing thing, but growing up is more or less the devil in disguise.

        I honestly don't understand what to do or to say to him about the situation. I might as well just read his tweet, how bad could it be? "I like snapple" or something along those lines would seem as if something he would tweet. Scratch that, "I love snapple", he would tweet. Yet, I'm sure he would never tweet anything rash about me, right? Gee, who would think one person could make your mind go haywire? I open up twitter to read his tweet:

"It's funny how one regular person can just walk into your life one day, and then become your whole world the next"

That can't be about me right? Like he must of just of met someone and now he likes her. But, to my knowledge I'm one of the only new people he has met. No, stop being self-centered about this, Hope. Greattttt, I'm going insane. Talking to myself... Back on topic. He can't possibly be talking about me. I'm plain old, Hope. No one special. Maybe, he's just talking about Riley and just comparing the years he knows her as a day. Right? 

 I then hear my phone go off once again yet with this ring means I got a text. I immediantly open the message up. Yesh, I know, no one ever talks to me so any chance I get to talk, what do you think I do? I try to attempt to make conversation. I quickly look through my short list of messages and see that it's from Joe. 

J: Hey sorry for not getting back to you

Respond, Hope. Respond. I repeat respond. 

H: It's fine :)

J: No, it's not I acted as if I was a jerk... Sorry

H: It's fineeeeee, don't worry :)

J: Okay, can I skype video call you?

H: Sure

Within a matter of seconds, I hear my laptop go off with the familar skype ringing. I quickly make my way over to my computer and hit answer.

"Hello" I said dragging out my 'o', trying to make myself seem cheery to change from earlier personality of sadness. 

"Hello to you to" Joe laughed half-heartedly. 

"So, what's up?" I asked questionly into his warm chocolate brown eyes feeling the warmth pulling at me. Stop it. Snap out of it, Hope.

"Gas prices" he smiled cheekily at me.

"Nice one was expecting the sky, but A+ on creativeness" I laughed sitting backwards.

"But, uhm I need to say something as in a serious topic not joking around" he said shifting around uncomfortably.

"Go on" I said plastering a fake smile over what I'm thinking all the horrid things that he can say.

"I'm sorry about almost kissing you, I just got caught up in the moment..." he said not letting his eyes meet mine. Yep. He said one of the horrid things I was thinking he could say. Well, isn't that dandy feeling a knife go straight through your heart and turn. 

"Yeah, I understand. Same" I said smiling once again a fake smile trying to withhold the tears that want to stream down my face.

"Okay friends?" he asked still not looking into my eyes. Ouch. Friendzoned officially? Well, isn't this the best day ever?

"Yep. I got to go, my mom almost has dinner readyy. Bye!" I said trying to end the call quickly, so I couldn't cry in front of him. Before, I could hear his response, I ended the call. I started to feel the tears cascade down. 

(A/N) Sorry for the short chapterrrrr! Next chapter should be in Joe's point of view. *Cue the ooo's* Can't wait for that can't you? Hope you enjoyed!