Life's Simply Complex

I hate when anxiexty comes over

I hate when anxiety comes over, mostly because she always brings depression with her. By the way neither of them were invited. It's like the more I tell them to stop coming the more they show up. Unannounced.
I mean everyone gets anxious right? It's a natural feeling, but the difference between me and the average person is that my anxiety is always there. Reminding me constantly of my biggest fears and insecurities. Anxiety isn't simply the feeling of intense nervousness when you've done something you feel guilty about. A lot of people get nervousness and anxiety mixed up. When i tell you i have anxiety I'm telling you I'm constantly worrying about even the smallest details like how to tie my shoes. Which became extraordinary scenarios. Example, I think to myself I need to double knot my shoes because if I don't my shoe string will become untied and I will trip and fall and everyone will stare and me and laugh. Which in reality could happen but the chances are slim to nun.
That's just one part of anxiety. As you see it's not the same as just being nervous about something. It's a mental disorder. Which is often downplayed because it's not that serious to other people who have never experienced living with anxiety think you can just "get over it" or "calm down". I swear people are so ignorant.
So let's talk about anxiety's best friend; Depression. Yay. Depression is definitely one of those things that society loves to treat like the paper cut you can simply put a bandaid on, and it will be heeled by tomorrow. For your information society the biggest bandaid couldn't cover the scars depression has left with me.
Depression is often mistaken for sadness. IF YOU ARE SAD THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU ARE DEPRESSED. Just because your mom told you that you can't go out this weekend doesn't mean you now have fallen into this deep depression. You may feel temporarily sad even sad for the whole weekend, maybe even the whole week. That doesn't mean you have depression. You uneducated bafoons.
Depression is a intense sadness that last for a long period of time meaning months or years. Usually a sadness that never goes away and is caused from a traumatic event. Which causes you to feel alone isolated or even worthless. Depression just comes out of nowhere and waves over you like your own personal storm cloud. Their is a scientific reason why people get depressed. It is caused from a chemical imbalance in a persons brain. Where one-selves brain does not produce enough serotonin. The happy chemical in our brain that keeps us smiling and laughing.
Sometimes it's honestly hard to tell if someone is depressed. Because like me, people are really good fakers. If not you can see a change in behavior or attitude. Even in little stuff like clothing or word choices.
Sometimes I feel as if depression and anxiety run my life. Like they control my decisions and choices. It sucks and honestly life is hard enough without those mental illness. No I haven't been depressed and anxious my whole life. Actually now is a good time to get into the good stuff. So let me tell you a little of the back story.