3North

Secrets Out

    "Do you have a plan?" I keep thinking its like word vomit coming out of my mouth "yes" ugh now I definitely will be sent to the hospital. My name is Skylar I'm 15 years old and my life has been well absolute shit. I won't go into many details but it pretty much started from when I was a little kid. My birth mom April was well not the best mother. She was an alcoholic and drug addict. My stepmom abused me. My birth father was an alcoholic and also abused me. I have gone through all forms of abuse such as physical, emotional, verbal, sexual, neglect, and abandonment. I was currently in a foster home and I adored my foster mom so much she was an amazing foster mother. Her name was Brenda, and she was the best mother ever. It wasn't until I finally felt that I was loved by someone that I worked up the courage to tell my therapist Savannah that I had planned to kill myself. I loved Brenda dearly and didn't want to disappoint her. "Skylar you know I have to tell Brenda right?" I kept looking down not paying any attention to Savannah. What is Brenda going to say? What if she hates me? "Skylar?" Savannah said looking into my eyes. I looked up "do you have to tell her?" I say with my voice shaking. "yes Skylar you have a plan to kill yourself she needs to know" "ughhh" I rolled my eyes. Why is it I tell someone something that I didn't want others to know and she has to tell Brenda. I got up and went outside "Brenda savannah needs to talk to you" "oh ok " Brenda and I me walked back into the therapist office. I sat down in the waiting area as Brenda went to see Savannah. It was a good 5 mins and Brenda came out. "are you ready to go?" "ya, I just wanna go home." when I opened the car door and sat inside Brenda looked at me and said, "you know what needs to happen, right?" "NO your not taking me to the hospital" I yelled. "Skylar you know it's for the best." she started the engine and drove towards the hospital. I can't let her do this. I don't want to be in the hospital. what if I just jump out the car? no, she will slow down ughhhhhhh. "Brenda I don't want to go to the hospital" "I know, but I want you to be safe" "I am safe" Brenda was quiet she kept looking forward and driving. "alright then, I guess this conversation is over." we were quiet the rest of the way. When we showed up I was so mad I refused to get out of the car. "Skylar don't make me drive up to the front and have security drag you out of this car." I rolled my eyes and sighed "fine I'm getting up." we walked into the waiting room and waited for what seemed like hours to me. When we were called they just asked me a few questions and had me undress and put on a robe thing. To be honest I'm not even sure what they are called. "Are you just not going to talk to me Skylar" I just looked over in her direction and said nothing. I turned my head back to the TV and shrugged my shoulders "I'm just tired, that's all." They ended up moving me to a different place in the hospital ER. It was about 3 am when I fell asleep.