Why Him? [ChanSoo FF]

Kyungsoo POV

theres a lot of angst in this I suggest if you cry easily don't read this and if not get some sad music going itll help the mood sadden :)

I lay in Chanyeol's bed silently, I wonder when he'll wake up and give me a kiss. Do I sound too needy? I mean its not like he won't give me a kiss, because of course he will I mean why wouldn't he?

I turn around so my back side is facing him, I worry that one day if me and Jongin are still together if we'll ever be normal like how we used to be.

I start seeing my vision blurry, oh go don't make me cry now!? There's no way I am gonna cry about one guy while sleeping next to another. I get up quietly but quickly, I run to the bathroom and look in the mirror. If I keep crying my eyes will poof and he'll notice and ask. 

damnit Kyungsoo! Today is Christmas eve get yourself together and go to the store we have two people to buy stuff for.

I quickly turn on warm water and wash my face hoping the redness calms down.

I look in the mirror once more before walking out and changing clothes giving one lasts look at chanyeol before leaving.

 I walk to my car and get in, I'm rushing to buy stuff but I don't even know how to explain to Jongin why I wasn't home.  He wont be too mad hopefully, well what am I saying I left without saying anything he's gonna be pissed!

Okay to the store!......to the mall!!!!

I rush down the streets it's early, but there's still a lot of traffic for some reason. I finally pull into the mall and park near the entrance, turning off the cars engine, and ran inside.

the first place I go to is "BUCKLE" you know fashion brands and such.

I run to the jacket area, a dark blue denim jacket catches my eye and I take it off of the rack and look at the price " 21509800.00 " wow jongin better not dirty this thing.

I take the jacket and proceed to look for something for Channie.

I go over to the hoodies. I find a black one with the image of Minnie and micky mouse making a heart. I smile and look at the tag before my eyes get all huge. its about a thousand more than what Jongins cost. welp, fuck it, might as well get me something while I'm here.

I go to the shirts and pick out about five regular black shirts.

I go to the counter and put everything on the counter. the lady looks at me and raises her eye brow before checking me out. 

"Uhh sir are you sure you can afford this?" she asked me with a tone of confidence in her voice.

I scoffed and pulled out my wallet  pulling out my black card. I wanted to throw it at her so bad just to see her stupid face understand shes not anywhere near my level of wealth yet.

once she's done being in shock she starts scanning everything and tells me the price

"373,859,293,853,000.56" she said sighing.

I cringe as I give her the card that was more than I expected. Both of them better wear and appreciate these.

I take the bags from the lady and walk out looking at the amount and cringe even more.

I get back into my car and drive to another store for the wrapping stuff.

I smile softly thinking about tomorrow and how Christmas will be great. oh all of the things me and chanyeol will do! But I still have to spend time with jongin. 

I slam my foot on the breaks. HOLY FUCK WE START COLLEGE  NEXT WEEK 

I literally forgot .... that means I won't be able to see chanyeol. unless he goes to college with me. ill have to ask him when I get back.