Seokjin was there, his arms dropped and a little bit drunk. He and the boys were out a little while back and it pissed you off all the time. Not that you wanted to, you understand how he and the boys are like brothers. But you don't understand why every night is the same 'drinks with the boys'. It became too frequent that it wasn't anymore a surprise whenever he came home past agreed curfew.
"Ne?" You asked about too toughly.Your sight moved back to the television playing.
"I was late. I'm sorry"
"Araso" was all you said and he didn't seem satisfied with your reply.
" Y/N" He drops by the couch and looks at you, leaning on your shoulders. Despite the fact you said you were fine.
He hums as he brings his lips on your neck, sucking gently. You were turned on but you couldn't let this go on, "not tonight, Seokjin" "Araso" he said pulling away.
Your heart thumped and that made your mind coil with so much doubt, it bugged you. You have to let him go eventually. Do the right thing for both of you. You can't lie to him anymore even though you loved him.
"You still want it?" I asked. "Want what?" "Want us?"
He laughed over your statement, that was quickly muffled with the back of his hand, "ahh you know I love you just like how you love me"
He plants another kiss and your heart started pumping with so much guilt.
"I-I" You stutter as he faced you. "You do right?" "I-I" You retreated from the couch and head to the kitchen.
"Jagiya. You do right?"
You faced him.
You loved Jin. Seokjin. He was your everything. He always made you smile. It was one thing you needed in your life. Something that made you live and someone that gave you life.
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But there were points doubted grew and made your chest feel absolutely heavier than usual. Jin was my everything but that was when you loved him.
"Y/N, baby"
You were crying as he sees you. He sighs and approaches you. It killed him seeing his angel tear into a million pieces. He takes your cold face to his warm hands and kisses you.
You wanted this. But he didn't call you which made you doubt his loyalty. He didn't message you which made you doubt him. He didn't kiss you as much as before which made you doubt his love.
You pushed him with all your might as you saw him shocked with your actions.
"YAH WHAT WAS THAT?!" He yells.
"JIN I LOVE YOU OKAY?! I just... I can't anymore"
"What is it? Is it the hate? The fame? The fans? Me?"
You didn't answer. You just sniffed and headed upstairs. You hear him follow you with every heavy step- your heart dropped.
"Tell me you love me"
"Mwo?" You mumbled as you turned to him.
He was always afraid. He was a coward to his bandmates despite the fact he was the oldest. But this is a different type of fear. It was written in his eyes. One that he didn't expect. One that was inevitable. One that is painful. One that you know he didn't want.
"Tell me..." He approached till our faces were touching and his touch was burning. "... you love me"
"I can't Seokjin. This is painful for me. Don't make me" You muttered out of tears.
"Tell me" He demanded softly but you didn't move nor return his feelings.
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The cab you called beeped out of impatience as you pushed him out, but he didn't.
"Please" He took you in his arm but you didn't move.
"Goodbye Seokjin" you called as you walked by him, away and crying.
As you shut the door close, crying turned to yelling from the house we both lived in. As the cab drives, you left one of the best things you ever had in your life, leaving a sad trail of once happy memories and your once loving boyfriend.
