Bella's POV
I was so upset with Jaylene. She's the only person who knew that I actually missed Ethan. I talk about him all the time. He was all I needed and I pushed him away. I love Ethan. I always convinced myself I didn't but I do. I decided to go to Karen's because I needed to let it all out.
I got to Karen's and knocked on the door, practically in tears and expected Karen to open the door and give me a hug because thats just Karen, but since her mom answered the door I sniffled and greeted her with a good "How are you?" then walked to Karen's room. Karen looked in my eyes and immediately asked what was wrong. I told her everything. How I was in love with Ethan, I told her all of Ethan's secrets, which felt nice because they were eating me alive.. they were deep. I told her about his bipolar disorder. I told her about his fling with one of Rowan's old friends. She interrupted me "Bella, just shut up." I laid down on her leg and cried as she traced her fingers through my hair and rubbed my back. Stuttering and struggling to say anything clearly at this point I let out a quiet "I want him back." and just stared at the ceiling. I fell asleep on her bed for a bit and was woken up to all of our best friends watching TV. "Oh hey guys" I groggled. They all bear hugged me and told me how much they loved me. God I loved them, they are the only people I really have. We spent the rest of the night playing board games and watching old snapchat memories of us. It was one of the most fun nights I ever had.
Ethans POV
Tonight would be the last night I'd sleep in my own bed all week, so why bother to sleep in it? I turned on my playlist and decided to write up a text to Bell.
"hey bella"
"hey be
"____"
Backspacing every word I wrote and constantly second guessing myself, I didn't know what to say to her. This is exactly why I stopped talking to her.. she stressed me out. Around midnight I just gave up. I went to Grayson for help. I'll never forget what he told me that night. "Why don't you just tell her how you really feel?" because once I took advice, It changed everything.
bella. im sorry for ghosting.
i was so wrong to let
someone so beautiful
and caring go. I truly
hope you can forgive
me because I think about
you every day. I always
wonder what we could've
been. I see you in the halls
and just wanna run up and
put my arm around you like
old times. I love you Bella
Tavern.. there's nobody else.
After sending the text. All I could do was wait. I listened to my music, and stared at the ceiling.
Bella's POV
"Guys!!! Ethan just texted me.."
"oh no girl do not.."
"AYE BETHAN??!!"
"read it!!!"
"i think this is important.. i'll be right back"
I went to the bathroom and opened the text. My heart dropped. I began to cry. My tears weren't of sadness. I was so happy to see his name pop up on my screen. I ran out of the bathroom ecstatic. I showed the girls. We talked about what to reply.
bella. im sorry for
ghosting. i was so
wrong for letting
someone so beautiful
and caring go. I truly
hope you can forgive
me because I think about
you every day. I always
wonder what we could've
been. I see you in the halls
and just want to run up and
put my arm around you just
like old times. I love you
Bella Tavern.. theres nobody
else.
12:26 am
ethan you are totally
forgiven. and i think
about you too, and i
miss you. how are
you doing? <3
12:38am
im okay actually,
ive been cleared
from therapy and I
can travel!! so im
pretty stoked. hbu?
12:40am
im ok.. it's been kind
of rough without u.
12:45am
im sorry
12:45am
i need you too
12:45am
i dont care that
im double texting but
i'd really like to see you
sometime.. there's
something i wanna tell u
12:48am
that would be
really nice.. how
does thursday
sound?
12:52am
I'm going to upstate ny
with gray, alex, nathan &
jake till next saturday.. i'll be
back that morning. how about
you come over around noon ish
on sat?
1:01am
ok, be safe eth
1:03am
ly gn❤️
1:03am
AU: to be continued.. hope you are enjoying so far!
