try // shyland

attempt # 1

I couldn't breathe. Mainly because Ryland was on my chest but I really didn't want to move. We were on my couch watching some movie he picked out. In truth, it was boring but i entertained myself by staring at him. I wasn't sure if it was the pain of Ryland's skull in my ribcage, but my chest felt on fire. The way i felt around him was all new to me. It was like my body was constantly tingling and warm. He made me feel excited for no reason. He had this hold on me i wasn't sure i understood or that he knew about.
I don't want to push this. We hadn't been together that long. Only 2 months. But i felt like i knew.
"Shane are you watching?" Ryland asked looking up at me. I snapped out of my thoughts and nodded. He rolled his eyes in a playful manner. I loved it. He had this attitude and playful manner to him without being childish. He always kept me on my toes ready to challenge me. His attention was back on the television and he chuckled at the movie. His smile sent a jolt of what felt like electricity straight to my heart and i felt the word vomit come up before i could stop it.
"Ryland?" I said getting his attention. His eyes glanced at me with a small smile gracing his lips.
"Me." He replied back. I rolled my eyes but stared at him suddenly feeling nervous.
"I...um...wanna tell you..uh..something." i stuttered. Ryland paused the movie to give me his full attention.
"What's up?" He asked seeming a little more serious and worried. That scared me. This scared me. I didn't know how to do this anymore. Suddenly staring at his passionate eyes and confused features pulled me back from the ledge i was threatening to jump off of.
"This movie sucks." I said smiling so he knew i was joking. He opened his mouth in shock slapping my shoulder.
"Mean!" He exclaimed before resting his head back on my chest and continuing to play the movie.