Not Normal

Never Been Kissed Or Dated

Not gunna lie, but I've never dated nor been kissed by a girl before. I dated a girl once, but that was for one day. 

The feelings that I had with that girl was beyond anything, it felt weird yet good at the same time. My heart would pound every time I would look at her or just be with her. It felt great. I know that If I kiss a girl that my heart would race that's what I've been always telling myself. Maybe I've just haven't found the right girl to do that with. I love to see movies with guy on guy relationships or girl on girl relationships it just makes my heart skip a beat you know. 

If I would be asked what I would want in a girl I think my answer would be for her to just be herself around me and to not be shy in being herself because I'm always myself. I would love for her to laugh at my jokes even though they are not funny or to try to make me smile in any way if she notices that something is wrong with me. I just want her to make me feel that she would be okay with dating a person her same sex and that for her not to think that its disgusting that it may or may not be new to her, but that her having feelings for me are true. I want to have that sort of relationship with a girl. The thought about dating a girl is making my heart skip a beat right now, maybe if i ever share my first very kiss with a girl maybe that'll give me the answer I'm looking for that I'm either bi or a lesbian. Who knows but yeah. I'm not ashamed of who I am to be honest I like myself. 

Dating a girl maybe won't be so bad, of course I will go through break ups and stuff like that, but I think dating a girl won't be a problem for me not one bit.