bitches broken hearts

Fucked up mind

I really feel like i don't have enough time to live.
Time is infinite but not for young girls like me.
I want to make new experiences.
I want to get drunk at parties.
I want to smoke weed and forget about my problems.
I want to make out with the cutest boys.
But there's always this little part of me that asks myself 24/7 if it's right what i'm doing.
But i don't care.
I want to live everyday as if it was my last day.
I'm the type of girl that gets clumsy when she's drunk.
I want to feel love that moment.
I want to get touched and kissed.
I want to get choked and fucked.
That's the only thing I can really feel.
But I don't forget that if it happens,
I'm a disgrace.
Not just for my family but
for myself.
Everybody will stare at me as if i just committed a crime.
Being myself is not being myself.
Because everybody judges the fuck out of me.
But hey, it's just a phase.
I'll get through it.
And at the end of my life, i'll have the word whore on my forehead.