bitches broken hearts

Part 3

Well hello.
I have been gone for almost 6 months now and its because i have been trying to get my life back together and be a good bestfriend. A lot of stuff happened and i almost lost the two most important people in my life. But. I saved it. We saved it. And im glad we did. Because without them, life wouldnt be the same. I might act childish sometimes but if i act childish its because i dont want to handle with that situation because i think that it wont be good for me. Thats why i try to escape from that situation or problem and act "childish". Its 4:46 AM right now and im kinda tired but hyper. I was watching the movie of my favorite book : The perks of being a wallflower. That book is amazing and im reading it for the 4th time now. I m finally done with cutting myself and i m starting a therapy in june and i couldnt be happier right now. Im finally getting help and i will finally be able to continue with my life and be happy. This year wont be as bad as i thought it would be. Thank my bestfriends and my sister. By the way my sister is moving to germany in a few months because shes not enough mentally stable. Im gonna miss her really bad. Because shes actually all i have when everybody else is gone. Shes the one i would ride or die for. Nothing can take us apart except for death. I hope that she finally noticed that trying to commit suicide isnt a solution for her problems and for the way she feels. I really hope that she will finally realize that everytime she tries to take her own life, also takes a part from me with her. Its because our connection is stronger than anything else. When she feels sad or depressed, i get really emotional and goosebumps show up on my entire body. Lets just hope that she will get well soon and finally be able to restart a beautiful future with s lot of happiness.
good night - maggy