Hollow

Aftermath

As i unlocked my Apartment door and headed into the dark Quiet living room. My heart would leap out of my body after seeing a figure by my balcony window, " girl what you jumping for?" i would hear Maya's voice , Grabbing my chest as if i was a eighty nine year old woman i sighed thanking god quietly that it wasn't anything else." girl you could've at least told me you were going to be here damn place" i would say dropping my bags by the couch. " um i live here too time to time thank you,  if you would've picked up your phone though? i almost called your mom but i figured it had to do with your job since your laptop was gone." i would nod tired still " you aight?" she asked and i would nod plopping myself down on the couch " yeah i'm cool just a little Jet Lag" running my fingers through my hair. " its either that or that strap was strong girl" she would say laughing and my eyes would bulge out of my head " what?" would come out of my mouth without any control.

Maya  laughed again " girl , you do know i've known you since we were running around with BoBo's in our hair, i know you and that is way more than just a damn jet lag" she would say and i would start laughing quietly and a tear would fall from my eyes. Maya slips herself closer to me and hugs me " Hollow, trust me you didn't do anything wrong". she would say rubbing on my back. " she's married Maya what am i supposed to do.... but she said act like it never happened so that's what i will do. plus i have today off so i'll just take today to get it out of my mind" wiping my eyes and shaking my head. " and think about it you still got Andrea ... right?" she asked and i would nod squinting my eyes " yeah but i gotta find out something about that ... something don't feel right about that either" a groan would come from Maya after i say that " why does every person that wants you have to have a issue? , why cant it just be great?" she asked and i would pull myself together and walk towards my room. " wanna watch living single so you can fall asleep?" she would scream out after me as she followed me. Nodding My Head as i walked in my room.

phone would buzz by my head , eyes foggy from my sleepiness seeing Jay's name pop up it was her personal phone number i would look back to make sure Maya was asleep , she always comes over just to pass out in my bed. i would pick up " hello" i would say and nothing came from the other end, a sigh would come from the other end " i.. messed up" i would hear her say and my eyes would widen as i sit up on the bed making sure not to shake Maya up " did something happen with the contract?" i would ask and she would sigh out loud " No .... i wanna see you again" she would say and my heart would drop " no" would come out of my mouth " i know " she replied back to me " i just needed to hear you say no to me" i would hear her sigh again and the phone would hang up. what the hell is going on , am i  losing my mind?. i would sit there looking down at my phone " no , no , no , no" i kept saying over and over to myself. i would stand up and head to my kitchen another buzz coming from my phone i would look down and see a text from her " open the door". when i tell you i gave birth to my heart from this. i would rush over to my door and open it to see Jay standing there. " wha.... what are you doing here?" i would ask whispering as she walked in " why are you whispering" she would ask whispering back to me i would laugh a little as she gave me a twisted face. " my best friend is in my room" i would say " damn ... i just needed five minutes" she would say and i would hit her tight chest , she would laugh and grab me towards her , as i placed my palm on my lips before she could kiss me , she would let go with disappointment  , " your married" i  say and she  sighs " look its complicated okay?" she would say and i would roll my eyes " sure" i  say as  she  pulled  me in and lean me on the wall " look marrying her was for convenience , she and i both know that , do i love her? no i don't i -" . " and your getting a divorce right? " i would finish her sentence and a sigh would come out of her lips. " no , i can only do that if i know for sure that i am in love and i don't have faith in that . i cant love you and i probably will never love you ..... but i will do anything to keep you but that...." her words would ring into my ears. and in that moment before i could say a word Maya would clear her throat " so...... whats your choice girl" she would say Jay would lean off of me and fix herself as i did the same. " this must be boss lady , gahdamn..... maybe i need to get an assistant job" she would say and giggle. " Maya this is - " " Jay" she would say finishing her name , Maya would curtsy  in a joking manner. Jay would Bow towards her and we would laugh. " okay so your not as bad as i thought" Maya squinting towards her . " oh really?" jay's eyes would squint towards me, " i haven't said anything negative" i would say and a smirk would come from her " its okay but um i just wanted to make sure you were okay , i got a meeting so i will see you in the office tomorrow" her voice would echo in my ear , meeting? with who the lady from the last time?. looking up at her nodding with a fake smile her eyes would squint at me as she tapped my chin with her index finger. " not like that" she would say walking out the door i would laugh the fact that she noticed that i was questioning her, i knew better i cant have any affections for her.