Interpretation of a teenager

I always thought that things would be different. You know like the movies, where the guy pops out of nowhere and then it's love at first sight. Well nothing is like that, the movies never tell you about the high school "thots" and how far they will go to tear a relationship apart.

The movies always showed the good side of people, never where there is screaming, and arguing. Not to mention other guys saying things like "your girlfriends easy" or "she sent pictures, call her pretty and you'll get whatever you want". Nothing prepared me for what was going happen in the "dating world".  Even my own mother couldn't prepare me, her little girl to what the world is like. There's always stereotypes and high expectations for everything.

Us girls, wake up 2 or more hours earlier, to put crap thats made with chemicals on our faces so we can be called "pretty". We do our hair every morning, and pick out specific outfits with care and the thought of us asking ourselves 'if I wear this, will people like it?' If us females do not do this we get labeled gross, and dirty, even ugly. There is such a high expectation to be perfect, that even if we have a boyfriend, the thought goes through our heads on the daily, that they can even leave us for someone prettier.

The movies never mention to tell you if your not "thick" your not going have a lot of Instagram followers or likes. They don't tell us that if your not into "pleasing your man" he will get bored and leave. Nothing can prepare you for the life of a teenager. 

High school was never like it was when our parents were younger, I mean yes there were popular kids, nerds, gamers, but it's 10x worse now a days. My mom said she didn't have a boyfriend till like 16 and they wouldn't think about sex until 17-18 if not later. Now a days girls ask other girls for tips and tricks for blowjobs and plenty of other things, at 14 years old.

If your lucky, you could just avoid this entirely, but you will still be labeled. Whether your the ugly lonely one with no friends, or the group that goes and smokes dope every chance they get. There's no escaping this hell hole, I mean unless you end your own life of course.

That's another thing, the movies don't show the depression and anxiety thats millions of girls and guys go through during high school. People are so mean these days and the image you have to keep up to can be so overwhelming that teens end their own lives over it.

I myself have been in this type of phase in my life. With social media, the stereotypes and its to easy to get stuck in this sad world. Especially when you go to school everyday and have people saying things over and over. When you tell everyone thats its fine, and it doesn't hurt, after awhile it does.

When your hurting everyday and your numb, thats when a lot of people end up taking their own life. I myself did try and I'm so glad that It didn't work, because if it did, I would never be where I am today. In the moment you just feel that the world doesn't want, or need you. But that's so wrong.. the world does want you, every little happy moment you have in your life you should cherish because those memories are what makes you, you!

My memory isn't about my fun trip to Disney world, or how my dog died, it's about what me, and millions of other girls go through everyday. Deep down we all judge each other at least once, some people more than others. If a girl sent nudes and it got out, everyone treats it like wild fire. We quietly laugh, or tease them as they walk by. Some guys whisper "slut" or they smile and once the girl leaves they all talk shit to the other guys.

If a guy grabs your ass, and you don't like it, or say anything about it, your called boring, or childish. When you start hanging out with a guy, and they ask you "would you give a blowjob" it's such a common thing that it doesn't even bother some girls. When in reality its so wrong. Guys shouldn't look at girls as sex objects and just because we wear shorts in gym class, doesn't mean we "want it". We wear the shorts because we like them, and we're taking the courage to wear them. The last thing that should happen is people judging, no one should say anything, and you should be comfortable with what your wearing, whether its shorts or any other piece of clothing.

What bothers me the most, and I highlighted me, because this could just be a personal preference, is when the romantic movies have the two people having there first kiss. I always thought that when you have your first kiss, that you were gonna have that cute mini make-out session like the movies do..but let me say from experience, its not like that, especially if your in junior high. My first kiss what not what I thought it was gonna be, It was so awkward. I hated it, after it happened, I went to school and my first intention was to talk to other girls about there first kiss and what to do.

If there is one thing I've learned from school, it's that someone knows something! Like for instance, the first kiss, I talked to some girls and they gave me some tips, while other girls told me there experience and what they did. And now I can kiss my boyfriend no problem.

The whole problem, isn't that movies aren't a great way to learn. The problem is, the movies always, lets say over exaggerate. They put 'fake facts' about how a teenagers life is per traded, and in the end it just gets a bunch of girls with high standards and expectation, and confusion with your high school experience.  

School isn't about coming and learning and going home, it's now about who your gonna start liking, and how better your gonna look than another girl. Summers aren't about having fun with friends, its about how many cute beach pictures and cute summer pictures you can take to rub in peoples face about your summer glow up, and how many likes you got on your recent post.

School and society, and even the real world isn't what it used to be, nothing is the same anymore, it's all about being top of the line, and having top of the line clothing. Being an adult, isn't about doing what you love, It's about doing something popular to get more followers and how many likes you get on your recent Instagram picture. Our world is crumbling down, and theres nothing you we can do about it, because if we tried to change it, we would be different and excluded and you don't want to be different...right?