don't tell me now|| pjm

two

two faint knocks are heard rapping on your mahogany door. you rise and wrap your fingers around the door, listening to it creak on its hinges. you smile at the boy and as he returns it,  you can't help to notice how his eyes scrunch up to meet his grin and the little tooth that slightly protrudes in the front.
"are you gonna stand there staring at me or are you going to let me in?" he jokes, ruffling
your hair as he steps into your house.
     you pinch his ears as you walk past him and curl into the warm spot you had been occupying on the couch earlier.
"i was simply admiring how gross you looked in the light" you joked, poking your tongue out at him.
     he feigns hurt and grabs at his chest, doubling over, as if you had snapped his delicate little heart into pieces. you pat the space next to you and he sinks down next to you, throwing an arm around you. he cleared his throat next to you and you cocked an eye to look at him out of your peripherals.
"do you wanna talk about your nightmare, jagi?" he questioned, checking to see if your body language screamed "no" in anyway.

you sighed and turned to face him.
"sure, but i don't wanna get into details jiminie."you said, rubbing your eyes much like a tired child would do.
watching your every move and peering into your eyes, he searched for any sign of silent hesitation. if he did, he would immediately stop. the last thing he wanted to do was upset you.
"i was running. running for a long time. what felt like ages. it was dark too. i couldn't even see my hand in front of my face. then i see a blinding light and i'm in a white room with blood everywhere." you trailed off, looking everywhere expect jimin's face.
"then there was you. you were bloodied. mutilated beyond recognition. it made me sick. that wasn't the worst. y-you said..." you bit your lip to suppress the tears that threatened to fall from your eyes.
"y-you said i killed you, jimin."
you finished, finally meeting his gaze and forcing yourself to send him a strained smile. you could feel the tears form in your eyes and couldn't help when a stray one rolled down your cheek. you moved quickly to wipe it away, but jimin pulled your hand away and weaved your hands together. his hands were warm and soft much like his persona, but rough enough to prove he was still a man. you knew how hard he had to work to reach the stardom he had gained. you knew how hard the words hurt him and could see the affects as you scanned over his slim face. he had dieted so fiercely, it scared you. he had changed drastically, but he was still the jimin you knew. with the sparking, chocolate brown eyes and the gummy smile. you didn't know how long you had sat there relinquishing in your own little world.  you felt him squeeze your hand and run the pad of his thumb over your knuckles lightly. he tugged your arm and pulled you off the couch, hand still intertwined in his.
"i don't think you'd ever be able to do such  a thing to me. you love me too much"
he sneered, pinching your warm cheeks with one hand and dragging you to your room with the other. you batted his hand away and punched him lightly in the arm. you both laid on your plush bed and you inched away, wanting to give jimin as much space as possible in case he wasn't comfortable with such a close proximity. you felt fingers press into your wrist and as he turned you to face him, delicate fingers were laid on your head and your head was pushed down onto his warm chest.
"i don't have the plague you know?"
you snorted as he jabbed his finger into your side, slightly tickling you. you were too tired to react in any grander way. you hadn't noticed how exhausted you were. you're eyelashes fluttered closed in a delicate ballet and you found comfort in the dark you found behind your eyelids. with your hand curled into the soft fabric of his hoodie, you were on the very brink of greeting sleep in a warm embrace.

then soft words fell across even softer lips.

"you'll never lose me"

but if only he knew how much that meant to you.

and if he only knew the sweet lies he told.