Journal Entry 1
I wonder how it would be to kill myself.I hope amd pray that tomorrow will be a better day but that's not how it goes. the only good thing about the next day is that the lord has blessed me to make it through the night.the day that my mom told me that my mom told me that she aoukd have killed me a long time ago if she wasn't afraid to go to jail was and will be in my head.that one sentence will be stuck in my head for the rest of my life.. it has sommewhat changeed the way tht i have aproached people. Everytime i look at her all i can remember is a bad time in my lifethaat i dont want to revisit.whenever she gets mad at me all i can remember is runing away and thinking that i would never return. that my have been th scariest moment of my life. I wa scare hat she would come ater me. when i say the police come for me i just froze i didnt know whaa to do.
nooow all i can thionk about is that i am th oly perrson that feels like that but i was wrong. a few weeks later i see Paris Jackson on the newsfor lmot the me thing.she has it alot wose then me but alt least she still has people caring for her. just because so one apologizes doesn't mean that ur completley forgiven.
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