That one not so secret secret

It's fine

"It was an accident!"I scream. "I do not believe that" He whispers "Fine!" I flop on the bead realizing that I had been yelling."listen, I'm sorry for being awful to you. it's just..." I slowly trail off regretting even opening my mouth. "You just.." he looks at me for an answer. standing up and pacing I find my self frantic "I don't know, I don't Know, I don't know.." I feel my heart beat in my throat and my hands become cold and sweaty "Hey woah woah it's OK winter it's fine. OK?" he pulls me in to a huge. I put my head agents his chest we stand there. "I can hear your heart beat." I say in a wispier "I may look pale as a vampire, but i'm not dead." he jokes, I smile and pull away looking in to his beautiful blue eyes. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make it worse." he says looking down to the floor. "No no please don't, you haven't made things worse you make them better. With out you I don't know what i would do." he looks back at me looking confused. "really?'' I smile "yes". "can we talk about it?" he looks at me with heasetense. Probably afraid of being yelled at again. "There is nothing to talk about" I say Walking over to my desk. "Winter, you really don't think I would find out" He turns towards me "I hoped you wouldn't" I say quietly. "winter normal people don't wear long long sleeves and pants all summer long" he says "Well if you haven't noticed I am as far form normal a person can be." I pick up my phone and put it in my trash can. I turn to look at him "yup" he says with a smirk "what?" "your right" his smile getting bigger your "not normal" as he started to walk towards me. I stand still, "Winter, your not normal. you amazing and beautiful. Your different, funny with put trying and you are smart so so smart." I roll my eyes. "Ha thanks" He gives me a serious look "i'm not kidding. I panic and walk way. "It started in 7th grade way before you knew me?" he turns around and sits on my bed. I continue to walk around. "I always cared to much about people and they cared about me. Soon people started to open up to me. I was excited and felt special. Until I knew too much, I realized how sad they were and what I could do nothing. I did my best to protect them but I just couldn't." I looked up and he was looking at me with such interest. "So I stopped focusing on me and started stressing about other people." I sat next to him. "I started to get anxious and mad and I.... I... It just happened and I've been doing it sense" I looked at my hand not realizing it was on top of his I look up at him."I wish you would have come to me." "I'm sorry. I was so afraid that once you saw my scars you would leave." Getting more and more anxious "there is nothing you need to say that for. I would never leave you. I can help." you look at him with a surprised look. "really? how?" he sit's in silents and thinks. "go get your phone" He says "why" I whine "because you need it" I get up and dig in the trash were i had put it, At the bottom it sat, i toss it to him. He gives it back after a wile. "how is any of that supposed to help me." "I'm in your phone" He smiles "ya I know" i say "no i am on speed dial. call me day or night, I don't care it it's 1 am I want to be there for you, you deserve it." I hold back tears "Thank you." I say with my voice shaking. He smiles and looks down reaching for my hand. he  put's it over mine, his had is warm and strong, but soft. "you know you can come to me ok?" He looks me in the eyes. I smile "ya ok" he lays back on the bead and motions for me to join him, I do and I rest my head on his chest. "winter" he says "ya" i look up "I love you" I smile and he holds me tighter "I love you Danny".