I ran into the bathroom getting dressed fixing my hair as usual into a messy ponytail running water over my face spacing out for just a moment thinking of lyrics for the newest song i was writing though i was bad and never published nor sang it was still fun to feel like a real artist
i ran out at 7:34 grabbing my bag the bus always came at 7:40 and the walk was about 5 minutes that counting i have to talk to my demonde of a mom pulling out my phone entering the password and swiping away pandora and dialing i didn't have my mom saved due to the fact that she kicked me out of the house once we moved to the USA
"hi mom what kind of shit are you lecturing me on today" i huffed she yelled at me again for being a "messy brat " and such
so i hung up while she was talking muting and reblocking her as i walked out my small apartment door turning to 21 pilots radio and walking to the bus stop seeing a somewhat cute guy he was in my grade but i never got to talk to him thanks to the fact more people in my school kinda hated me and and where done dead terrified he looked at me and smiled opening his mouth to start conversation as the bus pulled up
i rushed inside sitting in the very back nobody would dare to touch the seat knowing the unspoken rule of don't steal someone's seat this one being mine everyone settled in the guy pulling out a docter pepper a girl sat next to him i didn't care much to listen to their conversation so i stayed quiet tuning on hamilton "wait for it" started playing feeling the leather bus seat lean i looked over it was the girl she had brown hair red at the ends i knew she was a year or two younger than me 15 almost 16 i'm 16 "
hello" she smiled i saw some people whispering watching us
"hi...." i looked to her she looked at me in the eye burning through me with her smile
"im tay " the freshman smiled "you are" watched her a moment
"cj" she nodded her smile growing brighter she turned pulling out a large sketch look it was a little worn on the right bottom its black cover rest on her lap opening it to a drawing of a person it looked as if drawn by a professional i was amazed but kept quiet
the bus stopped and i jumped over her legs rushing out hearing people whisper my name making me go faster to almost a run to my locker tearing down sticky notes of names and grabbing my stuff walking to class not caring i was going early i saw the boy from the bus stop walking to the gym and ignored it sitting in the back of class like normal pulling out my notebook with the words "songs by cj" turning to a song i wrote called "flames in my heart" and of course i was stuck on writer's block then heard a bump seeing a young girl with red tips at the end of her hair, shorter obviously younger than me, tay smiled at me moving her brown/ red hair out of her face opening her mouth to say something but then turned to the front as the teacher walked in throughout the class i would look to her and look away confused of why i wanted to know her.. Maybe because she didn't know me? Maybe because her innocence? The bell rang everyone stood as i thought 'did class really pass that quick and did i really spend all of it looking at her and drawing...drawing her'
