♫ You're insecure don't know what for. ♫
I wake up to my phone blowing up at 6:30 am. I groan and go back to sleep. "SCARLETT VALENTINA JONES! GET YOUR ASS OUT OF BED YOU LAZY BITCH!" my drunken mother screams. I swear One Direction is the only thing keeping me alive. Without them I wouldn't be here right now. I mean I still cut but not as much now. I slowly get out of bed. I grab my phone and see 32 missed calls and 69 text messages. Most of the texts are from my best friends Emmalyn and Maribeth. I haven't seen them since I've moved to Texas. They still live in Rhode Island and as I'm scrolling through the texts my friend Ariel texts me saying "Holy Carrots! ONE DIRECTION IS GONNA BE IN DALLAS NEXT WEEK! WE NEED TO GO GURLLLLLL!" I started to get excited but realized my mother would never let me go. (I live in Grand Prarie which is only a half hour away from Dallas.) She wouldn't let me go because she thinks it's stupid how I love these five boys who I've never met. What she's doesn't understand I may not personally know them but I know everything about them. They are my everything. "SCARLETT HURRY YOUR FAT ASS UP OR ELSE YOU CAN WALK TO SCHOOL BITCH!" my mother screams. I miss the days before my father was gone. He's not dead it's just that he divorced her because he "wasn't feeling it anymore" but i knew he was sneaking around with some slut he met on a business trip. Since then shewould always come home drunk and he's seen her and some other guy making out. I haven't seen him in 6 years. I was 12 and Carter was only 6 so it's been extremely hard raising him. My mother doesnt do anything helpful.
I put my phone on shuffle, and put it in my iHome. I walked over to my closet and grabbed my I British Boys crop top and some jean shorts. "LOWER THAT SHIT BITCH!!" my mother yells angrily. I fucking hate my life. I lowered it and ran into my bathroom. I grabbed the razor I kept secretly hidden and cut small slits. I stopped and wiped of the blood. I was used to the pain now so I didn't cry. I walked back into my room and got dressed quickly. I heard my mother's car leaving. Shit. I call Ariel "Yo A!" I say. "Mom just left?" she asks. "Yup." I reply. Ugh. She knows me so well. "Be there in a few boo." she say hanging up. I grab my backpack and get ready for the final day of Junior year. I looked at my calendar. May 27th. In 7 days the 5 people I love more than anything will be only a half hour away and I can't even go. Just as i'm about to run into the bathroom to cut again Ariel honks the car horn. I sigh and run downstairs. I hop into the front seat of her car. "Ready for today?" she asks. "Not at all." I respond. I grab my phone and go on Facebook. The first thing I see is my arch-enemy Harmony's status update: OMFG. MY BOYFRIEND BOUGHT ME ONE DIRECTION VIP AND BACKSTAGE PASSES! BEST DAY EVER! As soon as we're at a red light I show A the update. She rolls her eyes. "That slut doesn't derserve to meet them." she says. "I know. She'll probably try to fuck Harry." I say. We both laugh. A few minutes later we get to school and that's where everything changes
