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|L I Z A-P O V|
I left chipotle and just sat in my car, thinking. I thought about every possible outcome of the 'relationship' I thought about all my comments saying 'how doesn't she have a boyfriend' and all the times they would ship me with others and now that I think about it. It was mainly David.
I get my phone out, still in the car park, and scroll through my camera roll when I found a photo of me and him, it was a mirror selfie and David had his cute puffy squirrel on his head (referring to his hair) i just stoped caring at that point and posted the photo onto Twitter with a caption of 'we've got some big news' I wasn't sure how this was going to play out but might as well try it.
I drove to Davids apartment expecting Him to open the door but instead I was greeted by... Alex?
"Hey Alex, where's David?" I stutter. Holy shit I forgot Alex and David share a flat.
The music was slowly dying down, finally and everyone was leaving my house except one very drunk Alex Ernst. He and  I both had one too many and things got, let's say. Heated. By the time I woke up he was gone and I pretty glad he had as well. All traces of his stay were gone other than a letter he wrote.
"We can never talk of this. As much as an amazing person you are, don't get me wrong, but I just think it would be best for both of us if we kept this to ourselves
Kind regards, Alex Ernst"
My first thought was why the fuck is he being so posh and my next being, what happened that night. I just remember us kissing a bit but that's not a big deal. My head started to spin like crazy, contemplating every situation and outcome of that night. What if I become pregnant? What if the others find out? What will David say? Wait. Did I just say David? Come on Liza get over yourself he will never like you back and even if he did you're too big of a pussy to show your feelings. I text Alex a simple "okay" to show I have read the letter and slowly fall back onto my bed. 'You really did that didn't you liza, you fucked up big time" I mutter to myself letting a tear form in the corner of my eye.
"Is David there?" I ask still standing awkwardly.
"Uh, no not yet. He will be back in a minute though if you would like you sit and wait?" He suggests.
I walked into the apartment only managing to get past the door before being hit with an overpowering scent of weed, out of modesty I try to hold it back but it was so strong I couldn't help myself to start coughing.
"Are you okay?" Alex asks.
"Yeah I just didn't know that you lot smoked weed" I say in between coughs.
"I can get you a glass of water or milk or something if you would like"
"Can i have a glass of water?" I ask, out of breath.
We sit down, glass of water in hand. It was an awkward silence of us both thinking of sentence starters and small talk to break it. After about five minutes of sitting in pure silence other than an odd cough here and there, we hear the door swing open with David standing there looking at us. He just rolls his eyes and walks to what seems to be his room. seconds later he runs out and hugs me.
It took me by surprise at first but then i let my body sink into his
"Thanks" he whispers.
I felt something in my stomach just then. Like butterflies. Maybe I did have feelings for him but it was too early to tell.
"I put money on this becoming something real" I turn my head to Alex letting go of David and just smile. I wish.
For the rest of the night me and David sat there thinking about how we were going to make it as convincing as possible and sorting out days we were going to film. By the time we had finished it was 1am. I was dreading of driving home, I hate driving in the dark. Clearly David picked up on how I was feeling "you can stay here tonight if you want" he suggests " you can sleep in my bed and I'll take the couch"
" yes please." I say smiling as his offer.
He guides me too his room and it was surprisingly much cleaner than I expected. " you can borrow one of my jumpers and sweatpants to sleep in if you want?" He says.
"Thanks"
He hands me the two items of clothing and I go to the bathroom to put them on. Both were way to big on me and the trousers were falling down. The jumper was pretty much a dress for me so I just didn't wear the bottoms.
I walk out to see David laying in the bed. Walking towards i see David hitting his hand down on the bed next to him gesturing for me to sit.
" can we make a snapchat?" He asks " you know to hint at us 'dating'" he says emphasising the word dating with sarcasm.
"Uh yeah sure" I giggle.
He holds the phone out in front of us and I smile, I feel David pressing his lips onto the side of my cheek. I giggle once more and he takes the photo. "Should I post it?" He asks.
"Sure, can we take one for my snapchat?" I suggest "you know, so it shows a wider proportion of our fans?"
" yeah." He smiles.
I pull out my phone, my lock screen was a photo of me and my bestfriends, Kristen and Gabbie standing back to the camera on a cliff with a sunset in the background. "Artsy" David laughs, I hum back to him acknowledging his 'smart' comment.
We take the photo this time both us smiling with Davids arms wrapped around my body. I post the photo and David gets up to leave the room.
"Wait!" I yell.
"What liza" he chuckles.
"Can you stay in here tonight, you know on the other side of the bed. I feel bad if you sleep on the couch" I lie, I just want him here with me. He smiles and walks towards the bed getting in on the left as I slide over to the right. "Night" I say before switching off the light. Moments later I feel his arms wrapped around me once more. I roll over and smile to him and he does the same back. Maybe Alex was right.