Second option

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*Silent Girl :

I have never told anyone about this.

Maybe because i dont have anyone...

But will you listen now that you're here?

I am...glad you wasted your time on this.

First Chapter:Depression

I have to admit myself
I tried to commit suicide.
I tried everything
But...I just couldnt
Why?

Because i just cant...
At first i was afraid of cutting...
Cutting my wrist,my legs,all of those.

You may think this one is funny,because at first i only wrote hurtful words on my body.

My COLD Lifeless body....

What do you think i wrote?

I'll give you examples

Ugly,Fat,Useless,B*tch,Gross,Worthless,etc.

Then the second time when i was feeling depressed again.

I scarred myself using my long..finger nails

I made them purposely long so that i can harm myself...

...i wonder why doesnt it hurt when i harm myself?
The only things that HURTS was the fact that i was...
All alone

All alone with this stupid depression that i wanted to abandon.

I hate being depressed

I hate it so much...i tried my best to stay positive

And because i was ALONE

I comforted myself... Whenever i harmed myself i always whispered quietly

"It will be over soon,just bear with me"

I did it with a smile...

Second Chapter:Happy? :(

It has been 12 years now.. Im finally 24.
But yes i am still experiencing depression.
I found this journal under my bed and it brings back so many memories.

I pity myself for writing this.

But i couldnt blame myself either.

Because depression may have stopped for a bit.

But it is still waiting for me with a smile on its face.

I guess you could say my life got a little...better? *chuckles* yeah..you could say that.

I finally found a friend.

She's the sweetest and i think i dont deserve such an angel like her.

I found a guy too... He said he understands me and that he had an encounter with depression too.

Im finally happy...

Third Chapter:I knew it...

I knew it..
I knew it from the beggining
When my life started getting all' happy and stuff
It suddenly became like CRAP

I hate it,I hate this.

IWANNADIEIWANNADIEIWANNADIEIWANNADIEIWANNADIEIWANNADIEFUCK—

i stared with a wide grin as i held the rope closely.

Am i finally doing this?

I knew it all along...

He didnt love me,He didnt understand me He even called me a "Dramatic Emo" for a having a goddamn depression.

He lied..
They all lied...

My friend? She was not a friend!

She faked it..
Just for fun...Just so she can laugh afterwards

Both of them lied..

The worst part is they both planned this

They...

Have reached the limit.

Should i? Do this?

YES DO iT!

Alright.

As i put the rope tightly onto my neck i slowly stepped on a chair.

"Goodbye world"

"Hey miss! dont do it!" someone said as they reached for me.