As I sit here and watch FruitVale Station I'm thinking of you. It is a shame how things turned out. I'm hoping the next deal of cards I get comes quickly. We should be one. I do not understand when guys blow off the good females for the thots. It's like your lowering your standards. Some guys should be ashamed of themselves. How do you want a good female, put her in the friend zone, and want boyfriend benefits. You can miss me with the bull crap. All I want is one guy that will ride with me until the wheels fall all. Hold me down. Cheer me up when I'm crying. Be my cheerleader and my dog pound when I needed and then some. Ugh, why are my thoughts all over the place. My mind never stops racing and barely getting any sleep. I'm really not into this movie because I'm daydreaming and I just can not focus.
