Headphones in,
Trying to block myself
from this cruel world
But I can still hear them,
All they talk about is all the problems I've caused in their lives
Apparently their lives were perfect
But the minute they saw me everything got ruined
How could I ruin their lives? When they were the ones ruining mine
I try so hard to be
what they want me to be
But it's never enough
Either I'm not trying enough
Or they don't think
I'm at their level yet
I could just take the pills in my bathroom and overdose myself
Or the razor blade that's lying lifelessly in my drawer and cut myself while I watch myself bleed to death
But I WON'T
because I need to show them
I'm strong and can beat
through this pain to death
I need to stop listening to them
And start listening to
what my heart says
Because all they want
to see from me is
my weakness and
they won't be seeing me
like that any soon
