White Walls

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I was escorted to the car that the 2 gentlemen were driving in. It was a Tesla Model X I think. A nice car to go with nice people as I assume. Once I was seated in the car and the babies were strapped in by Mateo we pulled off. We drove for about 30 minutes not counting the 5 stops we made because Julian wanted a picture next to every animal we passed by.

Mateo: You will be sleeping with me and there will be a baby room for your brother. And Julian already has a room. Ayleo is just visiting the neighborhood.

He said that while smiling at me in the mirror. He doesn't seem strict. I smiled back at him and he winked at me causing me to giggle. Somehow while driving for the 10 minutes Julian had found a way to unbuckle himself. Mateo argued with him as he walk over to me and sat on my lap and drifted to sleep. The whole rest of the ride Mateo stared at me. The way I held Julian and slowly rocked him. He listened to the faint snores of the him. He broke the silence.

Mateo: You know you would make a great mom.

Liah: Thanks.

When we arrived to the house Mateo showed me to the room we would be sharing and the closet my new clothes would come from. Clothes of every color. Before Ayleo left he gave me a hug whispering to me

Ayleo: Call me Ayo. If you need anything you can call me. I'm sure Mateo will take care of you.

I smiled back at him as he left he seems nice. Mateo handed me a phone. I smiled and said a simple thanks. I had a phone in the ward but it was a Iphone 5s now I have the Iphone X. I started downloading my social media apps. And Mateo sat next to me playing with my baby brother. Coming down the stairs I heard Julians feet and he ran up to me.

Liah: Hi JuJu.

Julian: You be my mommy now?

Mateo: Ju you know who your mom and dad is that not her.

Liah: Don't be so mean to him he just a kid.

Julian: Yeah I'm just a kid, Mommy you put me to bed.

Liah: Yea come on.

I walked upstairs carrying JuJu. I opened his door and placed him in his bed.

Liah: Have you ever said night time prayers.

He shook his head. Poor baby he doesn't even know what prayer is. I heard shuffling at the door and I figured it was just Mateo coming upstairs.

Liah: Ok get down like this and put your hands like this. Ok ready, Now I lay me down to sleep.

JuJu: I pray..... The Lord..... My soul to KEEP.

Liah: Good,I pray the Lord my soul to keep.If I should die before I wake,I pray to God my soul to take.If I should live for other days,I pray the Lord to guide my ways.Father, unto thee I pray,Thou hast guarded me all day;Safe I am while in thy sight,Safely let me sleep tonight.Bless my friends, the whole world bless;Help me to learn helpfulness;Keep me every in thy sight;So to all I say good night. Amen

Juju: I say it now.

Liah: No baby you got to go to sleep you can say it tomorrow.

Mateo: LIAH COME TO BED YOU GOT TO BE UP EARLY.

I kissed Ju on his head he was sleep now. I walked into my brothers room and made sure he was ok. I slowly walked into Mateo's room. I had already changed into my pajamas. I slipped into bed next to him feeling the warmth of his arms and body press against me. Relieved that I'm not in that sick place.

Mateo: I'm not taking you to treatment.

Liah: What, why? Was it canceled?

Mateo: No your just a good mother on your own you don't need treatment where they brainwash you of feeling or connection to the baby. AND if that does happen what about Ju? You can't be that selfish because you seem better than that. So once again I'm not taking you to treatment.