Everyday
I go around everyday
Trying to make the best of things
But no matter what I do I somehow fuck it up
I get nothing for what I do
I never thought that the day would come
When my own FAMILY
Would drive me to have those thoughts
Would cause me to be this depressed
I can kiss what little freedom I did have,
Goodbye
I sit in my room
And cry myself to sleep
Wonder why am I still here
I would have panic attacks
But no one comes in and checks on me
I have had to deal with so much on my own
Because if I told them
I would have gotten a "your fine"
Or "I don't know what to tell you"
I push my self through school
Just so I can see the day
when I can fully focus on getting a job
Just so I can leave
And live with a friend or something
And be able to give some kind of money to them
For letting me stay
I love my mom
But there are days I don't recognize her
I love my dad
but sometimes he is someone I don't know
My boyfriend says he is here
but the times I need him the most
I can't get to him
Because I'm no where near him
I wish I could go to my friends
But none are near me
Everyone says they are there
But who is really there
Because one day
I won't be there when they call my name
I'll be living somewhere else
So someone please tell me now
.........
Who really is there?
........
Knock knock.......
It's no one
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A Broken Life
PoetryI call this a broken life, each poem will tell you about my life I will warn some of the poems are very personal and can be sad but I'm just pouring out how I feel