Love & Hate

02

"Where did you went last night? Or should I ask which club were you last night?"

I shut my eyes deep trying to let everything sink into my head, this isn't a nightmare, this is real life and I have to deal with it,

I removed my coat and hang it on my arms to bow to greet my parents who are eating their breakfast,

"I'm tired, I'll head to my room, excuse m—"

I automatically stopped walking when I heard a loud thud, I looked back and saw my Dad who's already fuming mad,

The newspaper that he was reading is now laid flat on the floor after he threw it, the room instantly went quiet and the tension was growing every second it passes.

"You're tired? Of what? Get into your senses! You're already 23! Your brother is now a CEO, your friends are busy working, and you? What are you doing aside from going to the club?"

"Don't make me lock you inside your room for the whole month Roseanne, you're no longer in LA, you need to find a job! You're such a shame to this family, a disgrace!"

I chuckled hearing his words,

A shame? A disgrace to this family?

Wow, big word, family— I wanna puke hearing those words from him,

"You're more like an acquaintance to me not a family, I don't have a family, my family is in LA, not here—"

Before I could even speak another word, a hard slap landed on my face earning a loud gasp from my Mom and their house helpers,

"Fine, lock me then, make sure to lock my windows as well, we don't know if I would jump off from the window or something," I muttered and stood still not letting any drop of tear escape my eyes and kept a smile on my face

My cheek is stinging in pain, my heart was beating so fast, God knows how much I wanted to cry, I couldn't deny that his words hit me harder than how he slapped me,

I thought I was strong but hell, this man knows the spot where to throw the daggers right onto my chest.

"Does that make you feel better? Does that make you sleep at night? If so, I'll go now, feel free to lock me anytime you want I'm sure to be sleeping until afternoon since I'm so tired from clubbing last night,"

I'm sick of this, they were the ones who dumped me in LA, I was only 14 years old that time for fuck sake and after I graduated from College they forced me to go back here in Seoul thinking that I have a brighter and better future here.

I wanted to scream and tell them these words stuck inside my heart, they're not my parents, they're not my family

Keep that in your mind

"PARK ROSEANNE!"

"No club, no problem! I'm throwing a fucking party for myself and by myself!"

And that's what I did the whole night only wearing PJs plus booming music, tequila bottles and lemons!

I've been hearing loud knocks from the outside for about 10 minutes already, do I care? No.

I just did what they want but whatever I do, it just don't satisfy them,

And that's what I like, living up to what they think of me.