Ever since ian was a little boy he knew he was different. He didn't think or feel the way other boys did. He remembers one of his thoughts as a young boy. He wanted to be loved, more than anything he wanted to be cared for.
Ian remembers as a teenager the void his parents created with their inattentiveness and carelessness and he wanted to fill this void with the men he slept with. He couldn't. He wasn't alone but he felt a self contempt that would tangle itself into his identity. He tried hard to pull away from it but with every kiss and touch he felt it tug at him. Until he met Mickey.
