The Shy Curvy Girl

Chapter 1

Now let's get this straight, I'm not a thin girl and yes, it always gets the best of me. I'm a tall girl but I'm overweight and I always hated that about my body. And lets talk about my personality, I'm very shy and insecure, ha I got the whole package! (Sarcasm intended)

Right now I'm changing and getting ready to go to collage. This is always a struggle for me, because I always feel insecure about the outfits I wear. I'm that type of girl that loves wearing sweatpants and oversized t-shirts but I can't wear that to school because I wouldn't want to look like a hobo. 

Why did you have to be so fat Lili?

I have already accepted the fact that no guy would ever want me or love me, so that's why I just listen to music and create my dream boyfriend. Yeah it sounds weird but I love doing it. After all I will never find that perfect boy that loves me for who I am. So why not create him?

I put on some leggings that hug my thick thighs and put on a long sleeve tee. 

ahh, how I wish I could feel the softness of my favorite hoodie right now. 

I smiled and plugged my headphones in my phone and started walking towards the train station. 

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I took a deep breath as I walked towards the entrance of the campus. Stop worrying about how you look Lili! You're fine.

Oh who am I lying! I care too much about how I look.

I walked through the hallway, feeling a pair of eyes staring me down.

I looked around and saw Daniel. The school's hottest boy. His caramel skin mixed with his deep piercing eyes made bitches swoon. And what can I say? I am bitches.

But my question was: why was he looking at me so intensely? I never really talked to him. Just once when we were assigned partners for a lab biology project. But that's about it.

I heard him chuckle and those very annoying thoughts came crashing. Is he laughing at me? Could it be the way I walk? My face? My...LILI SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR FUCKS SAKE.

I turned around fastly and walked to class.

People never really judged or bothered me for my body but here or there a few jerks would. Many girls said I was "pretty" but I knew deep inside that they said that in an attempt of being nice and I didn't hate them for that, I just never really believed the compliments people would tell me.

I plumped down on my seat and plugged my headphones back in, I started listening to my favorite band The neighborhood. Now, I wasn't emo or sad, but they're songs described me at such a deep level.

I closed my eyes enjoying the beautiful lyric. I felt a soft tap on my shoulder, I turned around and saw Daniel staring down at me. Again.

"Whats up?" I asked him trying to sound as cool as possible. DAMN lili!! Since when were you such a pro at talking??

He smiled and shrugged. "I was thinking we could be partners for the project the teacher talked about last class? Since you're amazing at writing?"

I felt some sort of disappointment. Just because of that?? Because I'm good at writing? Not because he wants to get to know each other? Damn, that really did hurt.

Some sort of anger got into me and I turned away, "ah, sorry! I was thinking of working with Veronica." Oh shit. Veronica, who's my bitch. just kidding! She's my closes friend. Or as we call it "best friend". She isn't in this class!! I'm so used to her company, it's bad at this point.

He laughed, "Veronica?" He asked confused, "she isn't even in this class."
At this point there was only one way out. And that was: acting dumb.

"SHE ISNT?!" I yelled, acting surprised.

"You know if you don't want to work with me, it's totally fine."

BITCH YES I DO. I WANNA WORK WITH U BUT IM JUST PANICKING.

I just nodded and stared at his notebook. I could feel his grey eyes on me and the sensation of embarrassment rose up to my cheeks.

"Does that mean no?"
"Ah!" I laughed. "I'll work with you." I smiled.

"I think we should start with..."

—————-End of school day————————————-

I almost jumped out of happiness. We're partners which means we get to spend more time together!

"Hey, lili!" I heard a familiar voice yell. Daniel?

I turned around and saw him running towards me.

"Wait up!" He panted, "you walk so fast!"

I giggled. "Wow. You're really out of breath."

"Yeah, ah, I was thinking we could walk home together?"

"Hm?!" I asked surprised. "Walk home together?"

He nodded happily.

"Yeah sure let's go."

We started making our way home. We agreed that he would drop me off and then he would walk home. We were just talking about the project, but randomly changed the topic to trivial things.

We were around 2 blocks from my home when I felt some hands around me. At first I was ready to karate chop someone's ass but then I realized that these hands......