I rack my brain as I try to remember
The years where there was not even an ember
There was no light in the darkness
No place with a slight happiness
Remember the girls who pushed me around
They pushed and pushed me to the ground
My memory falls into the blackness
Then I spin and spin to wake up restless
As I give way again to sleep
My mind takes an enormous leap
Back to a time, to a memory
Another place, another story
They found the weakest link
My anchor was ready to sink
But they made me feel as if I would never belong
My placement must be all wrong
We cheered on the team for a victory
But our flyer fell and in an attempt of bravery
I received a black eye and torn lip
And a decision to permanently split
I could never their type of cheerleader
And became a part of the theatre
In those stories I fit in
My armor is no longer made of tin
A year left of my childhood I now must live
With a new family that cannot comprehend how much they give
17, and so scared to be
A future, a hope no one can see
Growing up has not been easy
But it's what comes next that puts the fear in me
I know that if I just stand tall
Everything will be fine in the fall
2019 is so near
So step forth and have no fear
