I NEED YOU

Save me

In a dark room, where even a clear light coming from the moon entered the darkness, scattered shuttered glasses were everywhere. Alcohol was spilled out, mixing the substance with fresh blood sticking out in pieces of the broken glassware. And there was a man sitting on the floor, back leaning by the edge of the bed, only holding the upper part of the bottle with his right hand.

He left me.

Jeongguk tried to process in his mind many times that he will never come back. There's no point in thinking him all the time. This would only affect his health and career. The other boys might worry if he kept on doing these things. Everyone knew the Jeongguk who would never let anyone invade his lifetime-building barriers won't do this. But his heart did otherwise. He thought he was the one he was looking for. He thought he was the one who he will share his old days with until death. But he was wrong. He let him manipulated him. He let him broke down the wall he'd been building up for so long.

Now in a room where no one knows, he let himself get drunk and hurt and tried to forget him.

I'm sorry, we need to say goodbyes. I'm so dope of your personality. It's disgusting.

He shuddered at the remembrance. Jeongguk cried out his feelings and drink a new one. He doesn't know what to do anymore, given that his hands were now painted in red, his heart torn to pieces, his emotions were not in check, causing him to throw what he was holding to the big flat screen in front of him and screamed.

Jeongguk clutched both his hands into his hair, "What's so wrong with me? Is it hard to be with me? Tell me so that I can change it. Just, please. Don't leave me." He shut his eyes, letting the tears to fall now uncontrollably.

His breathing turned into odd intervals. He's been crying for solid thirty minutes and wiped his eyes with the back of his palm, sniffing like a toddler and stood up. He's now decided that he won't let anyone come inside him aimlessly. Again. Anymore.

He walked out, leaving his mess. His hyungs don't know about this place so he is safe. Jeongguk grabbed the doorknob and pull it when he saw a pair of white converse in his sight. He thought for a second that, he's not safe anymore. Maybe this is a gangster of what organization or something 'cuz he will run for his dear life. His other members will throw him a lot of questions why did he have those wounds on his face. He will be in trouble for sure. His manager might suspend him from performing so that there won't be any issues regarding his doings.

He slowly mocked as if he will run now, wishing he could escape this man. He was about to run now because he pushed the man so hard with his shoulders and quickly turned his heel to retreat but a hand grip his arm, slammed him against the wall.

Jeongguk closed his eyes from the sting of being slammed. This guy is strong. He can't flop out his grip no matter what he does. When the man didn't do anything for like thirty seconds, he slowly opened his eyes one by one to look up. His eyes widened from surprise from what he just saw. He can't believe this was happening. Clutching his rough hands around his biceps was the man he expects the least seeing him like this. He wore a black shirt and a black hoodie, black jeans. It caught him off guard.

"You heard it, don't you?" Jeongguk flashed a smug look away from his gaze.

He sensed that he won't talk so he continued, "Why did you follow me? Now you sympathize me because of what you just heard. You will think that I'm such an immature man, not taking care of his responsibilities properly. You will see me now as a disgusting person you've ever met. So what? I'm so tired–" He cut himself off.

The man pulled him into his arms, shocking Jeongguk. When he tried to push his chest, he squeezed harder, sinking his nose into the corner of Jeongguk's neck, sniffing the scent of his cologne. This made Jeongguk shivered and made his knees go weak. He always had a soft spot for Taehyung. And he doesn't even know why. Just whenever he sees him his nerves always calm down. He feels safe and as if he's a free man. And he thought he himself fenced down his walls just to let Taehyung be inside of him. And he's okay as long as it's Taehyung.