Headaches, Malfunctions, and funny little Skeletons.

Headaches, Malfunctios, & funny little Skeletons.

I wanted to kill myself last night.
For the first time this month.
I was so upset over feeling upset.
See I get headaches a lot and I don't know how to stop them.
Such a chronic pain that follows me around, why not add it to the list of hanging clouds that fog my mind.
Such a small problem that made me want to die, but I couldn't care in that moment because last night I wanted to kill myself.
Built up emotions I suppose, or just a malfunction in the medication.
I couldn't exactly tell you why I was feeling this way, because sometimes I don't even understand my pains and the ways in which I feel.
Though I wanted to kill myself last night, I didn't.
It was if I was a skeleton, no guts to give me that last little push. And I guess I'm glad I didn't.
If being glad means that I took a breath this morning, and formed another headache.