Matteo's emotions reveal more than can be seen in the series. His feelings are just as colorful as a rainbow and his relationship with Luna showed him that he may have been wrong - or rather, wrongly loved. Such an emotional chaos with Luna came abo...
I've tried calling Matteo several times now. I sat in my room desperately trying to figure out what was going on in my head. So I lie down stressed on my bed and lean against my pillow. Although I try to think somehow, nothing works in my full head. After all the stress, he just ran away. Just like that without telling anyone. You might think he's hiding something from us.
I'm really worried about him. Where could he be? So I start looking for Matteo and that, although it's getting pretty late. I start searching in the Jam & Roller. But that was unsuccessful. Come on, think, Gastón, where could Matteo go if he has to think calmly. That reminds me. In the past, when he did not know what to do with Ámbar in this difficult situation, we went to the big bridge together. This was my only chance now, because it would have made no sense to keep searching in e' such a big city like Buenos Aires.
Matteo's point of view
Of course, it was Gastón all the time! "Gastón, it's him!" I shouted out loudly. This sentence flew from one end of my head to the other. I just can't believe this. How could I have been so blind? He was the only one who stood by me in spite of this crisis - even though he would have had enough reasons to distance himself from me. Maybe I was just flowing to him because I couldn't understand my feelings towards him. That explains so much. I don't even know where to start. I only behaved so badly towards him during the relationship crisis with Luna, because it only became clear to me how much I needed him. My thoughts found no beginning and no end. How could I have been so sure about this? How was I supposed to find confirmation that all this was true?
Completely immersed in my thoughts, I did not notice how he came closer and closer to me. The closer he came to me, the more nervous I became, the faster my heart beat, the more I lost myself in his radiant gaze. Wow, I stuttered this time in a clearly surprised but insecure way. That was probably the confirmation I needed. If I react like that around him, it can only mean he's the one.
And again I was trapped in my confusing thoughts. Meeting Gastón now is not an option for me. I can't face him like that. I've always been the best and the one who can do everything. What's happening right now just doesn't suit me. "Matteo, pull yourself together!" I told myself. Easier said than done. Luckily, he hadn't found me yet. And when I realized that, I couldn't help but seize the opportunity to run away. I stood up as inconspicuously as I could and walked away from Gastón without knowing where I was going. It felt like an escape - a false escape. That's how criminals must feel when they escape from prison.
Throughout the whole way that lay ahead of me, I didn't dare to look back for a moment. Although I was sure of that, I felt a compulsion that practically forced me to look at Gastón. So I looked back curiously and what I saw did not make the situation any better. Gastón had seen me. I didn't want to talk to him about it. But unfortunately, his facial expression already revealed everything. His eyes spoke volumes. The grief was reflected in his distant and yet so close pupils. He didn't run after me either, he stops. While I was running for my life, he stops at once. Feelings of guilt and sadness followed, which should plague me. I looked forward again and tried to concentrate, but knew that Gastón would stay behind me and follow my movement full of sorrow.
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Gastóns point of view
What did he have against me? Why did he suddenly start hating me? Am I no longer good enough for him as a friend? Seeing him run away from me has given me the last shot. I became very weak, both mentally and physically. My eyes were getting waterier all the time, as if tears were forming. What was that supposed to mean?
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