looking for the one!

I'ma luv u 4eva

Chapter 1

sitting on the edge of her bed ,Tamira gazed around her lavish bedroom and wondered was it all worth it.It was three o clock in the morning and she was at home alone for the second day in a row! Jamal her boyfriend of nine years was out in the streets doing god knew what and with whom.

she call him over a million times and not once had he bothered to pick up the phone.

she knew he was with another bitch! but without any proof all she could do was go on her woman intuition .rolling up vanilla dutch she shook her head in disgust,because she knew no matter how much shit he put her through she was not going anywhere. Tamira an Jamal had been together since she was 14 an he was 16 he was her man! she was his ride -or-die bitch! the two had weathered the storm more then once but nine years into their relationship and no ring in sight Tamira was starting to become real fed up! with the bs .she was tired of pretending that she didn't give a fuck if he cheated or lied.she was tired of acting like she didn't give a fuck if he left or if he stayed.she was tired of pretending that clothes, money and jewey would erase the pain of him not being there. Plain and simple she was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Nobody knew ache she felt in her heart everyday!. They didn't know that she's secretly hate herself for loving jamal so much they didn't know that the thought of him being with another woman tore her up inside. Tamara was it angel either she cheated on him a couple of times too, but it was only after years of turning her cheek to Jamal indiscretions.

what was she suspose to do after years of neglect thoughtlessness and cruelty? with her legs crossed she lit up the cigar filled with weed, parted her pouty lips,placed it up to her mouth and inhaled deeply.shaken by the reality that her man was up to no good ,Tamira ran her fingers through her long hair and release clouds of smoke from her lungs.smoke rings snaked from between her lips slow dance then evaporated into thin air.with her head down and her eyes close shut,Tamira swayed her head from side to side but somehow a salty tear still managed to slip through the crease and run down her face.Nina Simone soulful bass-filled voice echoed throughout the room and voice every emotion she felt at that moment .humming along,Tamira continued to sway as tears fell onto her nightgown one by one.

you know I can't stand it,

you're running around,

you know better daddy....

the words seen to reflect her somber mood. Tamira hoped that smoking a blunt would help calm her nerve's but so far it seemed to only make matter worse .All at once her anger grew. all night her phone has been ringing off the hook with prank calls 9 times outta 10 it was shantel the girl that jamal has been cheating on her with.

a year ago the two had heated arguments over jamal at tamira best friend Beauty Salon shantel call herself trying to put Tamira on blast an front of everybody put her Lil plan backfire cause Tamira beat her ass an blast her an front of everyone.some of the stuff shantel said did cut Tamira deep especially the part about her not being able to have kids by Jamal

each time she reached two months ,she would end up having an miscarriage .so naturally ,once she learned shantel was three months pregnant with her mans baby Tamira entire  world came crashing down.

she wanted to beat her ass on everything ! while an the move of smoking she heard a door close she got up shock an finally seen Jamal .

chapter 2

Jamal POV

damn man I swear shantel can put it down on an nigga frfr don't get me wrong I do love Tamira she my everything it just that she change over the past years I haven't had sex with her an almost a damn year I mean damn if she havent been fucking me who else can shit that's why I start fucking with shantel again I mean she can put it down on a nigga she a rat only reason she an my life still is cause she my baby mama I can't leave out on little jalen life like that you feel me damn I step into the kitchen I knew Tamira was gone be mad ass hell just by the way she looking at me.