Can I Trust You !? (Tamar Braxton x August Alsina)

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Tamar p.o.v

This was nothing but pure torture. My heart raced , I was sweating when it wasn't even 50 degrees outside and the little hairs on my arms stood all the way up. The car's brakes squealed as I slammed them hard  "Oh , My God!"  I screeched as I smacked the steering wheel and started to cry in the middle of the street. My whole world was crashing around me.

I'm trying so hard to hold it together but I just can't. "Breaking News ... This just in! Tamar Braxton and husband August Alsina might lose son due to shooting.. Minu-"

At that moment I started sobbing even louder. The media had already gotten hold of everything. I just wanted to get out my car and run to the hospital and hold him in my arms. I wish I could be by his side right this moment but I didn't wanna see my son like that. I couldn't see my son like that.

I still hadn't changed my clothes. I had my sons dried up blood all over me. It scared me to look down at all that red. I just wanted to strip naked and throw my clothes out on the street but I wanted my son on me. I felt like his blood was all I had left of him.

My husband hadn't even know what had happened to our son yet. I hated to have to break the news to him. He loved our son to death but he didn't mean this way.

My drive home was full of crying. I just couldn't stop sobbing or seeing my sons body lying in my arms. I couldn't erase the image. It was etched into my mind for a lifetime.

When I pulled back into my driveway I could see August was home. I managed to muster up the strength and get out of the car. I walked as if I was doing the walk of shame to the front door. When I opened our front door August ran to me and we collapsed together into the middle of the floor.

"Baby why d-didn't you call me!" He asked me trying not to let his voice crack

"I'm sorry! I just - I don't know." I said as I started to tremble.

"You didn't have to go through this alone , I'm here now. Let's go get you changed.. I'm gonna run you a warm bath and I want you to tell me what happened please baby?"

"O-okay I , I w-will."

As I sat in the bathtub August sat on the floor next to me and helped me wash up. I didn't have strength to do anything but stare at the red water I was sitting in.

"Tamar what happened?" August asked me snapping me out of my mind. Before I could speak I started crying.
"Take your time baby.. it's okay!"

As I started speaking I had to catch my breath. "I-I was making d-dinner when I heard a couple..." I had paused to cry "I heard a couple g-g-gun shot sounds. At first I thought it was firecrackers.." I looked him in the eyes "You know how Christian and the other kids love to light firecrackers every now and then to see the sky light up?" He nodded. "At first I d-didn't hesitate.. b-but then I heard s-screaming. Instantly I knew something was w-wrong" I tried to stop my tears from falling. "I turned the food off on the stove and ran to the door to see everybody running down the street.. so I s-started running too.. then I saw the s-"

I couldn't even finish my sentence. I jumped up out of the water and ran into our bedroom knocking August over. I laid onto our bed crying hysterically. My mind was out of it. I couldn't take this pain. August came in to the room and sat on the the bed next to me. "You don't have to tell me the whole story right now.. it's okay. I just want you and our son to be okay. That's all that matters." He kissed my forehead and put some clothes on the bed for me as he went back to go clean the bathroom. I managed to get myself dressed and stable for a moment. Before I knew it I had drifted off to sleep.

Do you guys like so far 😭 it's starting off slow but I think you'll like it in chapters to come !