Narcissist • Chanbaek✔

19; I'll fix everything

Rays of golden sunlight woke me up the morning things got better. The curtains were still opened from the night before. I had ended up falling asleep in my jeans and jumper against Chanyeol's chest- a place I once thought I could never sleep again. Everything was how it was the day before; the ceiling light was still on and turned the room a warm orange and the covers were under our resting bodies that kept one another warm in it's place.

"Baek, are you awake?" Chanyeol's morning voice engulfed the silence like a crackling campfire.

"Yeah." I said under my breath not wanting to move. Not wanting to leave the spot I had made for myself in Chanyeol's arms.

"I need to tell you something. Look at me."

I turned to face him despite my wish to stay frozen in time with my back against his front.

He still looked pained and guilty. I held his hands so he knew that it was ok.

"I was thinking last night after you fell asleep. I want to make everything up to you. I want to-"

"Stop it." I sat up. "I forgive you. Ok? Please stop feeling so guilty. It will only make things harder."

"No, Baek, listen. I'll fix everything. I'm not doing this out of guilt. I'm doing this because you deserve it and I want to make you the happiest person on Earth."

A small part of me was convinced the care in his words was fabricated. I didn't want him to pretend just because he knew it would cheer me up after my mother's passing. I couldn't stand the feeling that scraped within my hollow stomach that this may just be an act of pity and sympathy.

"Don't force it, Chanyeol. You shouldn't force this stuff. If you don't love me you shouldn't have to pretend to make me happy."

"No! Baek! I said I loved you didn't I? I said that I made a big mistake. Don't, for one second, assume that I'm faking any of this. God dammit, Baek, I love you. Get it through your thick skull" Chanyeol raised his eyebrows in annoyance and flung his arms in the air.

"It hurts me that you don't believe me when I say it." He sighed and crossed his arms and I instantly regretted doubting him.

"Ok." We were now both sitting up beside one another. I felt a sudden urge to touch him, to feel his skin against mine, to just have any physical contact to ease the tense atmosphere. I turned my body so that I was facing him and sat on his lap, straddling his legs between mine whilst watching his gaze follow my eyes.

"I'm sorry. You're right and I completely believe you. My emotions are just... all over the place right now."

He nodded causing his bangs to topple over his eyes. I leant forward and brushed the hair away and off his forhead.

"But I'll let you fix everything if that's what you really want."

"Thank you, Baek. I promise I will never let you down again."

We stared into eachothers eyes for a short while before Chanyeol suddenly sprung into action. "I have an idea!" He grinned and started to get up. I had to move my body off his legs in order to let him move anywhere.

"We're going out. Can you be ready in an hour?" Chanyeol looked like a crazed maniac as he dashed around the room grabbing clothes and underwear and other items too.

"Yes."

"Ok, wait for me. I've got to go somewhere first." He rushed towards the bathroom which suddenly triggered an unconcious reaction within me to leap up and sprint towards the door blocking his way.

"I get the shower first!" I giggled trying to close the door but Chanyeol had pushed half if his body in the gap.

"Baekhyun! I gotta get ready fast. You have loads of time. Let me go first!"