Did you ever feel like a doll?
Recently I always feel like I am one.Of course not appearance wise.I look nothing like a doll tbh. But more like I am being treated as one? Not with their knowledge of course. But sometimes people would treat me like a person who has feelings. Like when their in a good mood they play with their doll, maybe talk to her all nicely but when they are mad they treat it not that good and when the doll is broken they throw it away. Sometimes I really just feel like a punchbag. Of course not because someone hits me, but when people are mad they always let it out on me. I feel like I don't have the right to be sad, because when I am, I am gonna be thrown away, because who needs a broken doll? Dolls are there to make people happy and I always try to see others happy because then I feel happy too. It kinda became an addiction. I really just want someone to listen to my problems and don't just go 'I see' or 'That's bad' . It feels like my problems are not worth being helped and listened to. I feel just so so so lonely and broken inside.
I wish people would think twice before they say something. When it's about me it feels like "Oh she is not gonna be mad, it will be fine "and say something that really hurts me where I can't tell if it's a joke or not . I have feelings too. I want to hear nice things
too. Of course I still love my friends and not all of them are like this.
Sometimes I really wish I could disappear and see how many people really care for me, who would miss me? Would someone look for me?
Can someone please come and repair this broken doll?
