My mind is full of things
I cannot figure out what
The time ticks as I sit still
awaiting for something to happen
for something to come my way
but I sit and sit
pondering my life away
questioning my moves in every way
should I really be here?
what have I done wrong in life
why did this happen to me
I hate the thoughts
the process of putting my memories on replay
not stopping for a brief moment and have everything on display
and realizing I rather be distracted
not knowing what my mind is up to
and fall away from my thoughts,
the images,
the memories,
just stop
stop the ticking
stop the dreaming
stop the tears
stop my hands
from reaching something deeper inside
that could end a lifetime
of memories yet to come
I should be thinking of my future
not the past
but it is kinda hard
when it relapses
I sit here way to long
letting my legs turn red
water mixing with tears
sweating with anxiety
trying to stop
stop thinking
