The List

Chapter one

"It's bitchin" Penny looks over at me and smiles then gives me that stupid head nod.
"Penelope please for everything holy and bright  never say that again." I glare at her from the drivers side.
"But we're all weirdos" She smirks at me then looks down at the radio which is playing Believer by Imagine Dragons.
"Oh my fuck. Please stop with the references" I immediately turn down the radio and realize how close we are to my apartment. As I pull in I hear a small laugh from beside me and as I look over Penny makes the "duh duh" sound from that SVU show. Rolling my eyes, I put the car in park and hop out faster than she does.
The trip up the stairs is always an adventure. Penelope doesn't believe in elevators so every time I'm with her, she forces me to walk up the steps. As we finally get to my floor I look to my right and see my guy best friend pacing back and forth in front of my door.
"Kyle what the fuck are you doing?" I brush past him to unlock my door.
"Have you been on social media lately? Twitter? Instagram? Anything?" The second the door clicks he runs in and goes straight for my kitchen.
"Not within the last hour. We were at lunch. Why? What's up?" I set my keys down and help him out by grabbing the box of Mac and cheese I knew he was searching for.
"Mary your list was leaked." He shouts at me while filling a pot with water.
"My fucking what was what now?" Right as I turn towards Kyle, I see Penny do the same.
"The list? You know the one where you write down names of guys you wanna-"
"I know what was on my list Kyle? Where was it leaked at" I run to my room and grab my laptop, knocking down anything in my way.
"Twitter I think. Maybe tumblr. Hell I don't know." He turns on the stove to warm up the water.
I open up my laptop with Penny watching over my shoulder. I immediately opened twitter. I had notifications flowing in from almost all of my followers. People asking why I made the list. What made me choose the names on the list and why I gave it to someone to leak. The person behind it said that I asked them to leak it so I didn't have to do it myself. I never once asked anyone to leak my list. Who in the hell would want this type of list leaked?
"People are treating it as a hit list" I look up at Penny who's staring at my screen in shock.
"Yeah it really not that big of a deal." Kyle flops down beside me, attempting not to spill any hot chocolate on my hand-me-down leather couches.
"Not a big deal? Listen I understand that some of these people, for example, Harry Styles, are never going to see this. But there are some who will for sure 100% see it." I sigh and start to slouch.
"Like who?" Penny looks at me then back at the list.
"I don't know Pen. Maybe The Stolen, possibly Jake freaking Miller, Crow Brennan, or hell maybe even Walter." At that point I'm not sure how to feel about the situation. I quickly shut my laptop and hop off the couch to pace around the apartment. No one understands how stressful this really is. I made that list when I was like 16, I had no idea what I was thinking, I had no idea that it would be leaked. But who in the hell would leak it? Who could be that petty and leak the only secret thing I had left? 

"Mary what are you going to do about this?" Kyle stands up alongside me, trying to calm me down but failing miserably. 

"I don't fucking know Kyle. What do you think I should do? Tell the world 'Oh yeah that's totally the list of people I wanna fuck, don't mind it.'" I start to wave my hands in the air, emphasizing my words. I look over at Penny who is staring at her phone. "Penelope what the hell are you doing?"

She looks up at me without emotion. "Just tell everyone it was you, I mean it was you. Why lie when that'll just make it worse anyway." 

I sigh and flop back down on the couch, thinking of all the ways I could admit to the internet that , yes, it is my list.