Mydate

Chapter 1

Dear Arjun,

its been 8 months since i quit my job. yes you are heard it right. i have been through many interview procedures over these months. trust me it was exciting and full of rollarcoster ride.

one minute i was sure i got in and next week "we will get back to you".you know when i was working before i use to thing about having a boyfriend of my own.you know someone with whom i will go out on dates, parties, road trips. someone with whom i will me, all of me. no hiding, no pretense, no being someone else,with i can be a kid where i no need to be smart and understanding.with whom i can be selfish, stuborn, stupid and crazy to core and yet be happy in his embrace. 

i always thought about it. well where ever i went i found good looking guys, attractive, well build and good guys but somehow i never even approaching them. well guess what i was scared that sonner or later they will break my frazile, lovely heart and i will be hurt emotionally and i would feel like a looser for being rejcted. i know i know i keep saying that "if someone wants to leave they can", i still say it AND mean it but as of this thought at back of my mind i am never able to take a step forward. well it sounds so stupid. i know the fact that saying something and being scared of it and not taking actions.

well its been while.

Now i wait is over and i want you. all of you and i know soon you will find me and be only mine.

Amen