left breathless

capter one

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Let's be clear that each chapter would have a word for the day

Ladies and gentlemen I present to u ........drumroll.......

Left breathless

Chapter one.
Okay so the word for today
               "I love u is a common sentence it take someone that really loves u to prove it"

" Mom why,why do you wanna do this" I said trying to hold back my tears

"Vanessa baby please don't- " Lorna my mum stooped low to my level looking into my eyes,my hurting eyes " I promise" she continued "if I could,I would take you away from here and run as far as from here as possible but" she swallowed it was really hard for her to be strong too.

I blink back the tears that's forcing its way though my eyes "but what mum" I removed her hand from my shoulder she didn't deserve to touch me "but what, you bring me to a place where I can see FOSTER HOME written broadly on the top of the building and you tell me..." I rolled my eyes "acting the drama you've been acting as my mother" I said not caring about my words any more,why should I she just did this.

"Baby no its not like that I care about you i-"

"Care about what, me? I don't think so mum or should I say Lorna"
there I said it,I called her by her name ignoring the shock in her eyes I continued "where" the tears came now,uncontrollably,I wiped it immediately,what was the use of crying when there was no one who cared no one to catch my tears and stop it immediately I regained my self and continued "where were you when I won my first trophy in my favorite sport basketball,where were you when I presented a solo with my favorite instrument the piano,when I took a bow that day everyone else's parents was clapping but were was mine" I came closer to her " where were you on parents day the day everyone's parent came to check their kids works in school and had really told me how much they loved my beautiful portrait of my mum who didn't show up

"I wanted to -" Lorna started but I raised my hand signalling her to stop.

"I'm not done talking" I took a deep breath then continued " do you even know me?my best colour,best food best..."I could not continue any more when my tears took over.

"Yes" I continued after some  silent cry trying to put my self  back together "Jayden my twin bro was the only child dad had cause for some reason he hated me." I sad feeling disgusted at the thought of my dad I mean Dave Clemons. just to be  clear I had no dad "but t least he is a more better parent than you  will ever be he was always there for Jay but you instead of at least standing by me you did this, Lorna you brought me here" I gesture at the big building behind me.

"How am I going to tell you sorry for this" Lorna said using her hand to wipe of the tears falling from her beloved daughters eyes ,that would be me but guess what she ain't my mum any more can't she get the hint.

"Sorry? " i remove her hands form my face and forced out a laughter "did you just say sorry?the only person who should be sorry is me not you.
I looked into her eyes now "I'm sorry I have been a burden to you,I'm sorry i didn't realise I was living with a stranger all along that I called mother,I'm sorry"
I put my hands together in a mock pleading manner

"don't say that you know I'm your mother" Lorna finally said

"Pufft" I exhaled "I thought you were"
I set my box in the right position to roll it backed my school bag and carried my other little bag with my free hand

"You better get going" I sniffed still trying to hold back "you don't wanna get home late, you'll have to cook dinner for your family,don't waste your time with a pathetic stranger like me"
With that I started to live.

I felt a hand on my shoulder from behind and stopped hoping to hear what I've wished to hear since my mu— I mean Lorna brought me here.
She tried to turn me around but I didn't bother spare her a glance.
What's the point it would only make me want to run and beg her not to do this.

"Janessa baby I'm sorry" was all she said. I  jacked my shoulder free from her grip and kept going without looking back.

"I love you hon" were the last words I heard her say.
And the last I might ever see her.

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