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I'm just done

Never in my 16 years of living on this earth have I felt so low, the worst part is that it never goes away but it comes in waves and hangs to me like a disease which clambers every so often all around my brain. I feel like there's no escape. People say to me that it'll pass or 'what do you think the main reason is for your thoughts but honestly I'll never know.
I know that I've done loads of things that other teenagers will never get to experience but, when I have done these things it's like I've got a voice in my head always saying 'what are you doing?'; 'Are you that stupid?' And man, it gets to you it really does I mean right now I've not gone to one of my mates party and not gone out with my mum instead because I feel like a burden 24/7, I feel like a waste of space for real.
That leads onto love I guess. Soppy I know it's silly. I'll look in the mirror everyday and hate myself, nothing is good and it'll never be because I'll always be this ugly creature in the mirror in which no one will ever fully like nor love but I'll just be taken advantage on by friends and others but the saddest thing about this is while I'm moaning about this I'm probably doing the same to someone else, I'm a self centred and disgusting creature that's worthless. I've only really got my mum and I absolutely love her because she's the only one I've got.