Back To My Self

To Hell It Is

I hear my alarm going as i slowly open my eyes, to see my dark purple painted walls,and the smell of old coffee, that i know my dad is making. As i crawl out of my warm bed,the covers falling loosely on the floor as a shiver of coldness makes its way up my spine.

"ugh this weather"i breath out.

I look out to see the roads all snowy as i curse under my breath "fuck"

while i shut off my alarm and look at the time 8:00 am it reads.As i rush to get to the bus that leaves at 8:10 i throw on a deep blue shirt that reads "fluent is sarcasm" while i tug on my black stretchy pants from giant tiger,throwing on my winter boots and jacket as i flee out the door, without a word to my father.

I bite my lip as my phone reads 8:09 I think about my father as i look up to the sky numbness grows in the pit of my stomach,hes never been the same since mom.My thoughts become stained as i bite my lip harder,i blame my father for letting me fall when i needed him the most he turned to drinking instead of turning to me,anger grows in my stomach.I look up just in time to see the public bus roll down the snowy streets right to were i am,i swipe my card and take a seat. To see the familiar faces of my peers, as i plug in my ear buds and drown out the world. Sorry i did not mention this before my name is Scarlett Jones,and welcome to my own personal hell.

As the bus comes to a loud and sudden stop making a loud SCREECCHHHH, I stand up ready to get off, before none other then Alex brown cuts me off with a smile saying

"sorry sweet pea".

I send him deep a scowl making my way up to the stairs with big bold letters that read ADDISON HIGHSCHOOL. I walk in to find my usual friends Kylie and Lola, i hear Lola rant about how the guy in science that she has a crush on wont sit with her,i roll my eyes which she catches and asks me

" who spit in your cereal"

i reply "i don't eat breakfast"with a grin on my face

as she storms away saying over her shoulder

"see you guys at lunch".

Kylie and I walk for a bit she says

"im not sure what to do about my math mark im flunking" she says it above a whisper.

Kylie is the quiet one of our group,but make no mistake she can be fierce,but she is the opposite to Lola and I lola and i are always sarcastic,sassy and loud.

I reply" don't sweat it,il help you in math we will get your mark up in no time."

As we part ways she says

"thanks,see you at lunch".

I just smile and nod walking into my first period class,health, bumping into Ryder Williams,the schools "bad boy" who glares deeply at me which i return as he says in a deep irritated voice

"watch it princess".

I walk to my desk as i take my seat thinking whats the deal with Mr.popular and Mr.bad boy,with the nicknames they are both full of themselves,which i dread and dislike the most about people. I glare at the back of Ryder's head, which he is only a seat up from me,as i come to a firm conclusion about Alex and Ryder they are both fuckboys and not worth my time.

As an hour and 20 minutes go by i keep my cold glare at the floor as Mrs.Robinson calls my name out her irritated voice catching my ears from the 3rd row, as she asks

" how many days can a human survive without water??"

I reply "what?"

She answers back " be respectful!,i asked how many days can a human survive without water??!!".

I look up at her my face and body giving off a cavalier attitude as i sense her irritation and impatience i wait a few seconds just to irk her before replying

"21 days" my voice thin but amused.

as i watch the smirk disappear off her face which i knew it would,while i put my ear phones in my gaze cast down at the floor,for the remaining agonizing 5 minutes.

I go through my classes like that until lunch were i meet up with Lola and Kylie,i see them already at my locker when i come out of my second period class. I walk up to them an amused look crossing my face as Lola's voice reaches my ears,

" i cant believe he paired up with Jessica instead of me!"Lola shouts while Kylie nods.

I speak up "your talking about Jessica Parker right?"

Lola looks at me with a scowl i know is not directed at me "yes "she reply's unhappy.

My thoughts wonder to Jessica Parker she walks around like she is everything,like the world will bow at her feet i wonder how her parents deal with her.Im snapped out of my thoughts by her voice

" you really think you can walk away geek".

I hear her sickly sweet voice cast down at a girl with glasses wearing a baggy sweater and baggy blue jeans,i squint my eyes is that lily ? I walk over to Jessica and lily to notice lily's gaze is still on the ground, Jessica looks at me disgust clear on her face as she looks me up and down emphasizing ever word as she bites out

"what.are.you.doing.here.!".

I roll my eyes unaffected by her words or tone as i take on an irritated stance,

" what business do you got with Lilly?"

To be truthful i don't even know Lilly she has always been the quiet girl at the back of the class, I can feel my friends stares at the back of my head for just walking away from them so suddenly. Snapped back from my train of thoughts by Jessica's mad tone

"whatever the fuck i want ugly bitch" she directs at me.

I smile and get in her face "leave her alone Jessica, i know your not the type to break a nail, i don't think you would have the time anyway.from how you stare at your reflection at any chance you get,i don't know how you do though,all i see is a heinous beast".

I pull Lily away and look down at her how could she not fight for herself or speak up, I wish Lilly could learn to fight for herself so i would not have to step in,in the line of fire.

I leave Lily standing there as i walk back to my friends Lola is the first to speak

" why did you stick up for her?"

i reply "because Jessica is a bitch,nothing more nothing less."

I lied, I know exactly who lily is and she's definitely not the "new girl".

They nod not quite meeting my gaze they know im still fiery from dealing with Jessica. Lunch ends as i bid them a short goodbye,going to my next glass physics which i have with Lilly, I take my seat in the 2nd row as she s at the very back looking undisturbed from the events at lunch. I shake my head and turn to the front as the physics teacher Mr.stone goes on and on and never shuts up. My day ends that way as i grab my stuff and leave, i have my headphones in so i cant hear the world around me,i walk onto the snowy road i take two steps my gaze cast down at the ground. Before i hear a loud hard blaring noise from a bus, i look up to meet the scared public bus drivers eyes before everything goes black.