⚠️ This chapter contains self harm, and depression! Skip this chapter if you don't like any of these! ⚠️
Billy's P.O.V:
Have you ever had those days, where you have a crush on someone, but they're already dating another person, and it just breaks your heart knowing that they will never love you? Well that's what happened to me today.
~flashback~
I was walking down the hallway and going to my locker, I opened my locker to see a note from Steve that said 'Meet me by the courtyard at 11:20'. I looked at the time and smiled, I headed to the courtyard but stopped to only see Steve and Nancy kissing. My heart breaking every second as I watched them. I saw Steve looking at my from the corner of his eyes, his eyes wide as he saw me standing there. I shook my head, tears falling down my cheeks, and I ran off.
~end of flashback~
(Still Billy's P.O.V)
Now here I was, laying on my bed, looking up at the ceiling as the flashback played in my head, over and over again. I started crying, hearing my mom come in, I watched as she sat on the bed next to me. " I'm sorry that happened sweetie.. but do you think he really made that note..? " she asked me softly. I nodded my voice shaking as I said " He hates me.. s-So... why not make that note.. and then plan on kissing someone else..? " I cried. She wrapped her arms around me, gently sitting me up, and holding me close, playing with my hair to keep me calm. I shook and shivered as she asked " What was it.. that you liked about him..? " she asked softly. I swallowed " Everything.. his smile.. his hair.. his eyes.. his personality.. just.. everything about him.. ". She smiled " Aw Billy... you're so sweet.. " I cried " Yeah I wish he knew that.. ". She held me a little too tight but it was fine my eyes blurry as I heard someone else walking into my room. Once I looked up, I saw brown eyes meeting mine, I quickly backed away from my mom as I saw Steve Harrington right in front of me. Tears fell down my cheeks as I looked at him. " I'll leave you two alone... " my mom said as she got up shutting the door behind her. " Hey... " he said softly to me, I only shook my head and looked at the ground, not making eye contact with him. He sat down on the bed next to me, he tried grabbing my hand but I yanked my hand away. " W-Why are you here..?" I asked him still glaring at the ground. " I'm worried about you.." he said in the softest voice possible. I swallowed and made a fist " Sure you are..." I mumbled as I wiped my tears away in an angry manner. I shivered as he touched my arm, pulling up my sleeve, I looked down, more tears falling down as I saw all the cuts I made on my arms. " Why..?" He asked me I growled and jerked my head up to look at him. " WHY??? WHY DO YOU THINK I DID IT??? I FREAKING LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT!!! BUT YOU HAD TO FREAKING KISS HER??? I AM SO DONE!!! SO DONE STEVE!!! I FREAKING HATE YOU!! I HATE YOU!!! " I screamed as I started hitting him, but not very hard since I was crying. " I HATE YOU!!! HARRINGTON!!! I HATE YOU AND THE WAY ON HOW YOU THINK YOU CAN PLAY WITH MY HEART LIKE THAT!!! YOU CAN'T DO THAT!! YOU JUST CAN'T!!!! " I yelled at him. He wrapped his arms around me trying to calm me down. I gripped on his shirt as I rested my head on his chest, squeezing my eyes shut, letting all the tears I held back, fall down. " You have all the right to hate me Billy... all the right... and I'm sorry for doing that... to you... you heart cant take it... I know... but I still love you... please give me one more chance... " he whispered. I sighed and loosened my grip on his shirt " Ok..." I whispered back. He smiled and kissed me, and I kissed back, calming down. We parted, " I love you Billy... " I swallowed and closed my eyes " I love you too... ". And we stayed like that, until the very next day.
