I drove paciently around Butler, has been a long time since I pass by this city, but I'll never forgot the way to his house.
I've been working for 2 years with Frank Iero and his band, The Patience, was the job of my dreams, with wonderfull peoples, traveling through wonderfull cities.
We were on 8 people on a tour bus, Thais, Cara, Frank, Evan, Matt, Alex, Carl and me, playing in the United States and Europe, along with other bands. After almost two years on tour, Frank decided to take a year off and I ended up moving away from the boys for a while.
As soon as I recognized the house, some memories came back and I tried to hold on to my emotions. "I hope he's not here ..." I thought, even though I knew deep inside that I wanted to see him.
I parked and followed the path to the entrance, breathing deeply before ringing the bell, still hoping he was not at home, there were no cars parked outside, beside my.
But to my bad luck, or good luck, he was.
Evan answered the door quickly, dressed in a gray shorts, a rather shabby Science T-shirt, and was barefoot, with an Xbox controller in his hand.
His face looked a little surprised when he recognized me at the door.
- Rafs! Well, I didn't expect to see you here! Everything is right? - Evan said looking a bit tense.
- Hi, everything is fine, thanks. Is Frank here? He asked me to bring some things... - I said, looking around the corridor expecting to see Frank or Jamia.
- Oh, no, they left with the kids to the mall, but I thing you can wait for them... - He said, coming out the door to let me in.
My heart was beating so hard, but I was trying to look normal.
Evan and I don't talk with each other since the the last six months, when I decided that I would stay with Miles and not with him. It was a big mistake and a long story...
- So, do you want something? I think there's soda or juice in the kitchen, water, maybe? - Evan broke the silence when I come in the TV room, where I suppose he was playing the Xbox. He looked a bit nervous, just like me.
- Oh, water is fine.. Hey, Sweat Pea! - I almost scream when I see the old and weird dog of the Iero's family, who is more famous than everybody in the band.
She was laying in the sofa and I sat with her, while Evan was in the kitchen.
The dog didn't notice me and kept sleeping, I watched what Evan was playing and don't understanding anything I saw on TV, I started to feel uncomfortable, with all the memories of the past months coming back.
*flashback on*
I was crying on the bathroom of the stage, while listen the guys playing and the crown being crazy. I can't understand whats was happening in my life. Once I was in love with Evan, then I was with Miles, the bassist of the band that are working with us, Dave Hause and the Mermaid. And now I can't decide what to do with my feelings. Evan is the most sweet guy, but I'm very afraid of loosing my job if we don't work together, and Miles... aaah Miles was the bad boy of my teenage dream.
I've always dreamed of a boy like him, and now he seems a bit in love with me, and I can't break his heart, but I can not break Evan's heart either. Oh God, what am I doing?
I was with my thoughts when someone knocked on the bathroom door scaring me.
- Rafa? Everything is fine? - It was Cara, the show was almost over and I bet Thais was with the merch.
- I'm fine, just with an allergy.. - I said, wiping my face with my sweater. It was impossible to hide my tears from the girls, Thais and Cara knew me very well, so an allergy would be a perfect excuse.
- Are you going to be long? I need a lot to pee and Thais can not be alone there... - Cara said and I sighed, hiding my face with my hand and leaving the bathroom. Cara looked at me suspiciously and entered the bathroom without locking the door.
- Where are Dave's boys? - I asked. She finished using the bathroom and went to wash her hands.
- Hum, I think they're in the crowd watching the show. I have to get back, get some medicine in my purse, okay? Bye. - She said and ran to the show.
