My Valentine

After Christmas

Val... he is going into the military. I don't know how I'm going to be able to live with out him for 3 years. I know there is no turning back and I love him way to much to just up and leave. He is scared. I'm scared. I know I'm stronger than my mom. I can stay with Val. We just have to stay strong. I... I just have to stay strong. I need to smile. I need to make the most out of the time we have, but most of all I need Val. I need his voice, his cuddles, his kisses, his warmth, I need all of him. I can do it as long as I know he loves me, I can do it. I think to myself as I sit in the bubble bath with my knees pulled against my chest.

Tears stain my face. I can feel my face turning red from me being frustrated at my emotions. I swiftly get out of the bath and get dressed. My dirtyblond hair pulled up in the towel. I walk out and go into my room. I sit on my bed for a while when Val texts me, calming me instantly.

Val:Wyd😁

Kylar:Wishing I was with you.

Val:I wish I was too. I miss you and wish I could cuddle you.

Kylar: 11:11pm I hope it comes true.

(Timeskip to a few days later)

My wish came true ❤️

It was Friday so my mom and Jenny left for the bar. I had laid the kids down for bed and me and Val had been cuddling and fell asleep.

~~~~~~🐼🐼🐼🐼🐼🐼Time skip
Its 4 o'clock in the morning when my mom finally gets home. I wake up to the sound of the door opening. Val is still fast asleep.

Mom and Jenny walk over angrily. I ask them sense Val doesn't have his car, if he could stay the night. They weren't happy about it but they let him sleep in my bed as long as I slept in Jennys room.

I got a blanket off my bed and let Val use the one he got me. He looked so sweet and peaceful. I walked over to the bed and kissed his forehead. He groaned, sat up and pulled me into a hug. I kissed his tired face and told him to lay back down. I laid down in Jennys room and fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of my phone going off from a call. I pick up the phone to see that it's Val. I pick up and ask why he called if he is in the the living room. His answer was "CUDDLEZ MEH!!", then he hung up.

I walked into my "room" and jumped onto val And ingulffed him in cuddlez.

(Update) 3-9-18
Val and I are going strong. Almost at month 8, and I am still the happiest little weirdo on this earth. He and I have gotten more intimate and "clingy" or at least I have. I my having trouble sleeping...with out him. I don't particularly know why, but I feel warm and safe with him. He saved me from getting hurt and from people walking on me in the future.

5-21-18 (update)
He is leaving on the 28th and I can already feel my depression weighing on me. He is my everything. What if I lose him. What if he meets another girl. I have had at least 4 anxiety attacks this month. I don't know if I can handle this. I love him so much. I can't live without him.

If he decides to leave me I will die... I love him so much.

He just gradusted last Friday and I don't know if I should be happy or terrified. He could get hurt. But I know if I love him all he has you do is stay with me.

I don't know if its just me but I feel like he had grown distant. He never tells me how he feels. He is always playing his stupid phone game. Why can't he spend one full day without using his phone while I'm with him. He is the love of my life. Our future is what I can't wait for. I want to be able to wake up and see his face every day. I've been spending the night over at his house. Him and I are even though I'm scared we are still as strong as we were 9 months ago.

He is one of the most perfect and sweet human beings I have ever met.

I hope even though he is leaving soon that what he is fighting for is our future as a family.

I want us to have an amazing home. Me playing bass in a band Val doing what ever it is he wants to do, And maybe later on  we can have a kid or two. I love the idea of having kids with Val. He is supportive. He is honest. He even treats me like a queen. I hope I can be his forever.

If I have to live without him I won't be able to live. Val is my everything. He completes me. He has fixed ALL when scars and holes that others had put there. He is mine. With out even that he messaged And said that he is sorry he didnt message.

Hey never kisses me as deeply and as lovingly as he used to. That's A small price to pay for love I guess.

I hope to soon go camping with Val. I have wanted to for about three months now. Just waiting for the perfect time. He And I will be sleeping together. I will hopefully be able to go with out my family.

Valentine hates my family and to be honest I do too. I will update more when I can I love you guys bye for now.